Jayne, Hun, I am almost 15 weeks and have 3 Scan which have all said that Treacle is fine with a happy and healthy hb. I even have a Video which i have watched over and over to convince my self that I do have a bub on board. But I tell you no matter how many people tell me that things are ok. I still to this day check my knickers every single time i go to the toilet. lol. So dont worry about that to much. I would almost say everyone of the ladies in the paml do.
Great to see you over there hun.
You will be a bit like me I think. Ducking between the two threads. I just not ready to say good bye to anyone and still want to give all the wonderful ladies in here as much support as I can possibly give them.
I do remember someone suggesting I was having twins very early on....hehe. I promise not to jinx you. I just pray that you have a very very happy and healthy pg.
LOL Jayne I am already feeling it but I cant do anything until I am sure I will be covered for the birth with my private cover so I will just have to wat a little bit longer I just keep telling myself that it really is only 2 and a half months away but feels like its taking forever hehehehehe, Jessica is just adorable how cute
Jayne glad to see you have made the leap of faith over to PAML ~ I've just added your details over there & taken you off here so very exciting!! Wish I could do it for everyone in here atm. But guess I will be soon enough.
Now besides that I am going to have a bit of a vent here so I apologise in advance.
DH & I were talking last nite about his appt with our counsellor (we've been seeing on since we lost Thomas ~ we see the same one but separately) yesterday afternoon & the subject of how DH felt about us TTC again came up. Now this is something he hasn't even really ever said to me but felt he could share with the counsellor which I guess upsets me coz at the end of the day it is he & I who are going to embark on this journey ~ maybe. Anyway he told him that he isn't sure he can go through another pg with me, says he is way too scared that things will go wrong again & that he doesn't think our marriage could survive us going through another loss. But then goes on to say in the next breath that he doesn't think he has the right to 'deny' me the chance to try once more. I just don't know how to feel or how to respond to what he has said as I want to know that if we go down this path again I have his support 100% & not for him to be sitting back waiting for things to go wrong again. And I also don't want to travel this path knowing that he doesn't feel that he has any other choice but to do it. We tried to talk about it last nite but it just all went wrong & I ended up asking him if we could just leave it for now, but I don't want to leave it forever but a part of me is so scared that he really doesn't want to try again & I won't be trying for another baby in the future coz I certainly don't want to make him do anything that he isn't at least 90% comfortable doing, certainly don't want to bully him into doing anything he will use against me at some stage in the future.
I so don't know what to do or even what the right thing to do is, I so want to try for another baby it is all I dream about & know I am lucky to have James but I would love for him to be a big brother but at the same time I don't want to force DH to do something he doesn't want to do. I am just so torn atm.
Sorry for unloading on you girls, I'll bugger off now
Jayne, congrats on another set of fantastic numbers!! Congrats also on the big move over to PAML Well done!
Amy, how cold is it!!!??? BRRRRRRR... and you are a day ahead of us in the weather dept, so it is only going to continue... urgh!! I am glad you are beginning to feel a little more comfortable with the idea of ttc again, it is a bit daunting, huh?
Liwa (hehe) how are you? I hope that spotting knicks off! GL I have all my limbs (now that O has come and gone )and digits crossed.
Michelle, I can't blame you for having a cluddle of the new baby!! How could you resist!! I'm sure it's hard tho
Nola, thanks for keeping us sane and offering all this baby dust
Not much going on here... I got a message on my phone today from one of Alecia's aunty's, saying 'I didn't know you were pg, do you know what you are having? I was going to give all my baby stuff to the op shop (I gave her most of my stuff last year) but I will keep it if you want it'...
Not sure how I feel... I can't message her back, I can't make calls etc from my phone.
A lady last week asked me how my brother was, I gave her a bit of a weird look and said, 'he died a few years ago now'.... how arkward did she feel!! OMG!
Sorry I have been quiet. Just to update, my pregnancy was deemed non progressive and I had a curette on Wednesday so that the "products" could be sent away for chromosomal testing. I have decided to go on the pill for 3 months to give my body a break as well as to lose a bit of weight (my way, which is not really appropriate for TTC).
Hi girls. Just a quick one tonight. In the middle of a run of 12 hour shifts so very long days. I just wanted to thank all of you for your ongoing support. AF arrived properly today so it is back on the clomid tomorrow.
I'll be back soon to chat properly and do personals. Have a lovely weekend.
Just dropping in briefly to say hi and too let you know all that the whole ttc stuff has taken its toll on me of late and we have decided to take atleast a 3 month break, If it happens it happens but we are not going to "try" anymore and it feels good not to have that pressure on me anymore. I have joined a gym for 6 months and going to get myself in shape and hopefully a healthy baody and healthy outlook on life will help us to be parents again, but never fear this is not goodbye from me, i will still be here to provide support to everyone who has given me some, i would miss you guys way too much! Kazz, don't worry those beautiful booties are still under my pillow and will stay there until one day when i finally announce a BFP! Jayne, I have PM you matey! Well best be off to the shops, i need some gym clothes to wear tomorrow on my first day!!!
I am so very very sorry, Words just wont help the pain that you must be going thru now. I pray that over time your heart will mend and that you will be able to go on and have a Miracle and share it with us all.
I just dont understand why this happens so often to such wonderful people.
Please accept my Deepest Sympathys and Know that you are in our thoughts.
Nola, Its so wonderful to see your ticker progressing along so nicely.
Pautiric, I am so sorry to hear of your loss you are in my thoughts.
Michelle, Sorry that AF arrived in full swing....how are you feeling matey?
Shellstar, GL with the gym, and i hope that the 3 month break brings you peace and that BFP that you are looking for. How better than to get one than without even trying for one GL.
Tanya, I am really sorry that you had that message on your phone and also about losing your brother. How did you go with responding to your daughters Aunty?
Kirsty, How are you and DH doing today? I am sorry to hear that he said these things to your councillor (i think that its great that you are both doing this btw). I really hope that you two can work through this issue. Maybe Stephen might feel better after he hears what the specialists have to say in September. Its a bloody hard road you are on (right now i cant think of one harder) but i know that you will get there and hold that screaming bubba in your arms, i have every faith in you and Stephen to get through this and make that dream come true. Hang in there matey and if you need me you know where i am.
Amy, I understand that you want to wait for the private health insurance to kick in after what you have told us about your past public hassles and i know that 2 and a half months does sound like a long time (i know because thats about how long i have to wait aswell) but the time will be here before you know it. Hopefully we will both get a BFP on our first month and by then all these other lovely girls will already be in PAML waiting for us!
Naomi, How are you doing? How are you feeling about your appointment tomorrow?
Jayne, About the checking knickers thing...in Lucy's pregnancy i was a serial toilet paper checker LOL at myself. Everyone does that during the next pregnancy (and probably my next also) it is entirely normal but hang in there your scan will be here soon and you will see that beautiful heart beating away. Your daughter sounds too cute lol.
Lisa, How are you doing? What happened with your spotting?
To anyone else that i have forgotten sorry, hope everyone is well and catching all those sperms to get that egg!
Nic - I'm so terribly sorry to hear your news. You've had a seriously rough time of things matey. I hope you'll keep popping in here and let us know how you are going over the next few months as you once again approach your TTC journey.....
Kirsty - I hope that Stephen changes the way he feels after speaking to the specialists in September too (roll on september!). You've had SO much to deal with - I never want to hear you apologise for sharing it with us, because if you didn't, how could we help? So I for one am glad that you've shared how you feel and I hope it is therapeutic for you too.
Jayne - I agree with Sarah on the toilet paper checking - OMG, I was obsessed with Jacob and am once again.....
Shellstar - you know what they say.....often when you 'stop' trying is when things start happening! I hope this is the case for you chook.
Hi girls, I just wanted to pop in to leave a couple of messages...
Nic...I am so very sorry to hear that you have suffered another loss. Although I don't post in here at the moment, I do still read and I was really hoping for the best for you. Take care...
Michelle...I am really sorry to hear that AF has turned up for you. I had everything crossed for you too. Still do...
Kirsty...I think of you often and really hope that you and your DH can work everything out. Sending you a big hug.
Sarah...hi! It's great to see you back on the boards. Talk to you soon!
A big hello to everyone else also...best of luck to you all on your TTC journeys!
I haven't got much time for personals this morning, so it's going to be a quick one.
Nic - I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss.
As for me, well i've been MIA since Thursday because my little brother and his wife had their first baby on Thursday night (first baby born in our side of the family, and second in hers) so i have spent heaps of time up at the hospital with them. My little nephew, Ryan, is soooo cute and even though i really wish it was me, i'm absolutely stoked for them.
So thats my news at the moment and i'll catch up will you all later on....i've got a baby to cuddle!!!
Well Im definatley not pg.
Dr has said to put a hold on ttc for atleast 1 month, just so my body can be normal for one month iykwim, this is what the letter from the Ultrasound said
There is a history of possible recent miscarriage.
Transabdominal and Transvaginal scanning was performed. The uterus is normal in size and midline in position. There is a very small amount of free fluid within the endometrium in the lower uterine segmant on transvaginal views. The endometrium in the fundus and body of the uterus appears normal. There is no eveidence of gestation sac. No other abnormalities are apparent. Both ovaries were demonstrated and were normal with mutliple follicles present on both sides there were no abnormal adnexal masses and there was no free fluid in the pelvis.
What does free fluid mean?
I have never seen a scan of my ovaries etc before, it was rather interesting, and the Dr was really really sweet about everything, said im not a (cant think of word he used) person who can get pg but cant keep it (miscarry all time).
He told me next time i get a +on a hpt no matter how faint to go and get checked out asap, so we dont have to go through this everytime.
From Saturday, ive had pains in my ovaries mostly on one side, but am getting it both sides, im know af is on her way, you know when you just "know"! so i have to wait so long before ttcing again! well it seems a long time, i have to get af two more times before we can try again! once af comes this time around, im going to temp and chart etc, so then i know what goes on with my body, without the pressure of ttc, which is good for us.
Nic - im so sorry to hear of your loss sweet, please know you are in our thoughts and prayers. Big hugs to you.
Shan - Congratulations on your nephew, although sometimes we envy those around us who have just found out about being pg, or have just given birth, while we still are ttcing, to special people in our lives that it happens to we couldnt be more happier for them as if it was our own. iykwim, one day soon you will be cuddiling your own baby! Congratulations once again, you'll make an excellent Aunty!
KAB - thanks for asking about me, im ok, plodding along nicely LOL, Im very grateful the nothing bad was found with the ultraound and that i CAN have a H&H 9 month pg!
Shell - I hope your ttc break ends with a BFP, and that the gym will make you feel more confident within yourself, iykwim? GL with it all.
Michelle71- Sorry AF arrived, big hugs to you. What long hours your doing, i hope you are taking care of yourself, making sure your eating right and sleeping ok.
Jayne - im sooooooo excited for you lol!!!!! Im hoping that we can all join you so very soon, grow Jessicas sibiling grow!!!
OH I am so glad that everything is ok Naomi, I am not sure what 'free fluid' means tho sorry hopefully one of the other girs will know what it means, but sounds like you had good news and that this new dr is good for being so thorough so WTG,
Michelle dido to what Naomi said I hope you are looking after yourself with doing such long hours, and sorry that af showed her ugly self this month.
Shan congrats on your little nephew give him a cuddle from us too
Sarah Deffinately I too hope we get a BFP together and can go over and join the rest of these wonderfull girls in the paml thread.
Tanya how horrible, I was at a family bbq about a month ago and my SIL mum came up and rubed my belly and said I cant wait for this one to grace us with its beautifull presance, and her face just fell when I told her the poor thing ( she is such a lovely women I wish she were my MIL ) and I was so cross that no one had told her as she felt terrible and i didn't want her to feel that way at all,
Kirsty It is great that you and your DH are seeing a councellor, altho it must be hard to hear things like that I guess sometimes its so much easier to tell someone whose practically a stranger than some one you are closest to I really hope you get it all worked out soon.
Hi to anyone I have not mentioned its not that I have forgotten am feeling a little under the weather and just want to curl up on the lounge today and watch telly
Well done!
)and digits crossed.
Talk to you soon!
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