Sorry, just a quick selfish post from me today. Looks like lots of us have been on an emotional rollercoaster today.

Had my FS appt this afternoon - and was hoping that he would be very happy with the 6.5kgs I've lost and would let me start clomid again in April, but he told me that he wants me to aim to lose another 15kgs, then go in for an ovarian drilling surgical procedure and a lap, then we will use clomid after that. So in the meantime he suggested going on the pill to try and regulate my cycle and stop the erratic bleeding, which I said no to. So if my bleeding problems persist I have to go back in a few months and get some progesterone tablets to return things to normal.

It's taken me two months to lose 6kgs, so going by that it will take me another 5mths (6mths if i think about easter eggs) to lose 15kgs, THEN schedule the surgery, THEN start clomid again. So it doesn't even look like I will get pregnant again this year - atm I feel like getting off this rollercoaster ride of TTC for good. It isn't meant to be this hard, right? I just walked out of his office out to the reception area where there were a number of pregnant women waiting and burst into tears - how embarassing.