Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ March 2007 #2

[Sharon19270]

SP I think you are having the same thing as me with AF, didn't you say that you normally have light AF anyway? I like the idea of a flowering cherry which blooms in spring, just so that I can remember my baby, but I have also been thinking about buying a helium balloon and going and sitting somewhere nice and peaceful, then saying a little prayer and then my goodbye (just to let go) and at the moment when I say I goodbye I will let go of the balloon, if that makes sense.
bekz read post above to SP about what I plan to do for my ceremony.
sarah066 I like the idea of planting a special plant, especially one that blooms in the spring.
missbelinda77 I can imagine it would have been a very disheartening FS appointment, especially when you have done fabulously losing 6.5 kg already.
satya sorry to hear about your loss, I had a miscarriage in 1998 and couldn't remember when things got back to normal after that one either, but, I wasn't charting then, and had to put TTC on hold until I got my other medical conditions fixed first.

[Bun]

mouse - yay on the all-clear to TTC again! Wishing you luck!

Sarah - hope the dentist visit wasn't too painful! I also had some fillings done recently that are still hurting and it has been 3 weeks! I hate dentists!

Sharon - sorry to hear that you are still having a hard time I agree with what some of the others have said - you don't need to let go or forget, I think letting a balloon go is a good idea. And I thought you told me you had put away the pg book! Naughty naughty .

satya - welcome and sorry to hear of your loss. My AF took 6.5wks to come after my first m/c and 5.5wks after my second. Hopefully you won't be waiting too long!

Belinda - so sorry to hear about your appointment. I can understand your frustration, and what a fantastic effort with the weight loss! I agree - it isn't meant to be this hard and is something most people just take for granted, so why do we have to go through this? Are you happy with your FS or thinking of going somewhere else?

SP - the tracking cycle is to monitor my hormones throughout my cycle, and then they do a scan as close to O as poss to check that all the hormone levels are where they should be throughout my cycle, and can show any possible deficiency which could be treated with clomid or other drugs to hopefully reduce the chances of another m/c. I think you are having AF, but I think it can be light after a d & c. Maybe it will get a bit heavier in the next couple of days. So sorry that you have been feeling pessimistic - it is hard to shake those feelings some days. Just try to remember that you will hold your precious baby one day and will appreciate the miracle so very much after going through this.

Hi to everyone else.

Well, I phoned my clinic and spoke to the nurse there and she said I have to do a tracking cycle to see what is happening, as there are different things they can do depending on where may in my cycle they may find a hormonal deficiency. So, my first BT is tomorrow. This is just soooo frustrating. They have found nothing at all wrong with me and have done about a million tests, the only unusual thing is my long, irreg cycles, late O and possible short LP, yet they still won't do anything about it! This has been going on for so long now - I know a lot of people have to wait an awful lot longer for their precious baby, but I am so over it. I went off the pill in Dec 05, took months to get a regular cycle back, starting casually TTC in June last year, then properly trying since Aug last year, it is now almost April and I am no closer to that baby we want so much. I just feel like no one is doing anything and it will never ever work out. I have been crying all night and my eyes are so puffy. DH even said last night that he thinks we should stop trying for a while, and that just made it even worse like everyone is against me. I can't not try - not now.