Thanks Sharon, Bekz, sara & saltprincess. I'm actually doing really well. Most of the time I'm feeling great, just the emotions kick in every now and then.

Congrats to Beks & Tinsel hope both bubs are of the sticky kind.

Las - must be extremely frustrating with the irregular cycle & PCOS. I've always been extremely regular so I can't imagine how annoying that must be when you are TTC.

Saltprincess - try and be patient about the appointment. Doctors work very slowly with fertility issues anyway it's not likely to make any difference. You are right that they don't seem to care. The trouble is they don't really show any interest in you until you have had either 3 mc or have been trying for over 12 months. They just expect you to relax and keep trying, seemingly having no clue how difficult it is to do that.

Bekz - I feel for you with the wiping obsession. I'm soooooo sure I will have obsession too the next time I get pg.

Bun - try to keep your chin up. Try to not test until you are about a week over then there's less chance of disappointment. Start living like you are pg now and then you will not have to change your behaviour or diet when you are pg and therefore not need to know so early. If you haven't already done so make sure you stop drinking coffee & cola drinks. I read on a naturopath website (one that specialises in fertility issues) that there's something in both that can lead to mc. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this in this thread but also try to cut out transfats as this is now believed to cause infertility in some women. I can tell you what types of things it's in if you want to know more about that. Often dietary things like this can work for women when modern medicine can't help.

As for me, I've had a positive day today, a really hard day at work so I didn't have time to dwell on anything. No tears or sad moments so I'm hoping they are a thing of the past... only time will tell.