Oh Ruthie I am so sorry honey! I am devastated for you. I don't understand the unfairness of life sometimes. Take comfort in your son. Even if he doesn't understand what has happened, he will understand the pain inside his mummy and he will be there to comfort you. It's amazing that children seem to have such a strong instinct for their mother's pain. Please look after yourself. My thoughts are with you, and I will be thinking of you tomorrow morning. Take all the time you need to grieve, but always remember that we are all here for you if you need us.