Hi everyone,

Sorry no personals. Selfish post today. I was in the middle of doing personals when I got a phone call and lost the post. The phone call was a friend informing me that my SIL is pg. I'd suspected that she was trying as she'd gone off the booze.... and was dreading the announcement. I'm glad I got the news from the friend.... not them as at least I could have my cry without anyone witnessing it. They've been trying 5 minutes.. I don't begrudge them their happy news, but I should have been 19 weeks now & shouting it out to the world, and they are madly running around telling all and sundry at 5 weeks (but not us yet). It will be interesting to see how long it takes them to break the news to us.

I only just get rid of one pregnant person around me (my workmate) and another one just drops in my lap.... I feel cursed. I know she is going to go on and on and on about being pregnant.... all she has done since the day I met her was talk about her wedding and that's only just over & done with and I just know she will be the same about being pg. I think I might just have to tell her about my m/c and just tell her I really don't want to hear the ins & outs of it all & get it out there and up front. I really can't endure every family event being taken over by pregnancy talk.

I feel so powerless at the moment. I don't think we DTD on the correct days so there's no hope for this month, then I'll probably have to wait a couple more months for the LAP and then the whole IVF thing will rear it's ugly head. I am so trying to keep positive but am finding that impossible.