Hi Luna,

I just wanted to quickly say that I hope you are doing okay today. It sounds like you have had a very difficult and emotional day. I agree that it is cruel to sit surrounded by reminders of pregnancy knowing full well that you are no longer part of that circle. I think it is very easy to become obsessed with TTCing, and it is hard because the more you think about it and stress the more they tell you that you need to relax! I also lost my first, and I think it feels all the more cruel because we fell the first time we tried. I realised at 5weeks that I was 4 days past AF. It was such a lovely surprise. Now this time around, I am eyes wide open about my cycle and when to test. Sometimes I think that I won't fall pregnant for that very reason - because I am wanting it too much.

I think you need to try be kinder to yourself (and I know this is hard) and not focus on what you didn't do. Maybe look into a relaxation CD or yoga, just to give you an opportunity to not think about ttcing.

I hope you will be okay this week, and that you find comfort and support here. Take care and a big hug