First I m going to smack your hand and then second give you a big hug.......

What this garbage about 40 year old women having no right............. what, you turned 40 and became a less worthy person on this planet. I know toooooooo well that the age factor puts additional pressure on, sometimes that clock ticks so loud you cant hear your own thoughts, but please dont every think you arent worthy of having a baby.

I am incrediably lucky and I do have my 2 sons. I also count what day of my cycle it is knowing that I am limited in the amount of times I can get the BFN. Its hard but you just make a decision. Is this what I want.... If its a big fat yes then you just do. You do wake up and take your temp or go to the accupuncture or anything else or any hoop you have to jump. And while your jumping through those hoops you put a smile on your face and keep a positive frame of mind so as to give you baby to be a fighting chance. Its not easy.....Ohhh God I know its not easy, but we are who we are, we are the age we are, and we made the decision to do whatever we can. Try not to feel down about it try to find a positive. Even when you are at your worst.....LOOK for that positive, you will find it somewhere.

As for me ladies, its off to pick up my babies and the urn today, and my positive in that........ at least they will be back with me an I can look at something when I talk to them instead of staring off into space. (wouldnt want a big white jacket being put on me as i chat away to the up aboves)

Sorry Luna.... dont mean to be to direct.... I do understand...it does hurt... but you can do it... have faith in yourself ... you deserve it just as anyone else does... HUGE HUGS