I am totally new to this and am probably doing this all wrong but I was hoping to get some input or something. In reading some of your posts and experiences, I almost feel silly writing but I also see that there is a great deal of support in this group - I hope you have room for one more.
Yesterday I had my 3rd D&C and I am very depressed. I have had 4 pregnancies - 3 of which have ended in miscarriage (the 1st, 2nd and 4th). The third was the result of IUI and ended in a BEAUTIFUL little girl who is almost 1 and who is my world. I desperately want her to have a sibling. This time I got pregnant almost as soon as we started trying but I lost it at about 6 wks (didn't find out 'til 10 wks tho). I am devasted because now I have to wait a couple/three months to try again and I will be 40 in October. My husband knows how much I want another child and said we can try again but naturally only - no more help. He says he doesn't want another so I feel he was relieved by this loss - esp since the technician thinks I might have been carrying twins. I feel very, very alone in my grief and very scared I won't be able to have another full-term, healthy baby. I have 3 siblings and really want my daughter to experience a sibling too. I am so sad, angry and scared sometimes I think about doing myself physical harm but I won't b/c I want to be a good role model for my daughter. I know I'm not eating or drinking enough tho - just don't want it. I could use some help on how to deal with this right now.
Sorry so long - haven't learned your lingo yet. Thanks for any words of wisdom.
Last edited by sweetpetite; July 14th, 2007 at 05:36 AM.
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