Bettyboop, fiona264, I can't believe that I am 41 and want a baby so badly too. Like I said before I have been thinking about having a baby for 2 yrs, I was 39 then and I thought I was too old. I was already way past the baby stage my kids where in school and I could pretty much do whatever I wanted. But the desire to have a baby did not go away it became stronger and stronger. Then in Oct 2007 I decided to go for it, I got pg the 2nd month ttc, Nov. and found out on christmas eve that the baby had no hb and m/c on Jan 5 2008. So now I am in my 2nd time ttc since the m/c. I believe that I am calm but sometimes I do feel desperate. I have been going through hell in the last 2 months with my teenager who ran away from home a week after m/c to be with a boyfriend, who is just the worst person anyone could want for there kid. So that has not helped out my situation. But anyways I don't want to depress everybody and I find I am getting upset writing this, I will give you guys more details at a later date.

Hope everyone else is having a great weekend.