Hey Everyone. I am new to this...so I hope that I am not intruding on the friendships that you have going here. I guess I will start out by telling you my story...
My DH and I decided that we were ready to start our family and tried for about 3 months, and concieved a baby in November 2007. We were so happy. Told both our families at Christmas. Where his brother announced that they were expecting too...two weeks behind us. From that moment I had a bad feeling. All I could think was that their baby was going to be a constant reminder or how old my baby was going to be...morbid I know...but I couldn't get over it. We saw our baby at 10 weeks...and the doctors said everything was great. The doc. even said, "If something happens to your baby now God had a good reason to take it." In hindsight I see that all the warnings were there that this wasn't going to work out. I hate myself for knowing and not being able to protect my baby...anyway lost the baby and had the D&C beginning of Feb.
I want so bad to be pregnant again...
I am just struggling...with fear, apprehension and jealousy.
Is this too soon to start trying again? Why do I feel like I am going soooooo crazy?
I hope everyones dreams come true and truly appreciate you all being here...because I think some people are tired of hearing about my emotional issues.
I'm so sorry for everything you all have gone through...
God bless you all...
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