I dont feel there ever is the right time IYKWIM!!!

after I had Katy I said thats it I dont want anymore kids my hubby was devastated but allowed me that time to grieve it was about 2 mths after Katy was born that I woke one morning and thought how can I not give my baby girl little brothers or sisters .... she would have made a wonderful big sister etc...

anyway we started TTC and it took us a while I dont know if it had to do with me not being emotionally ready and my body shutting down or what but when I finally managed to conceive a baby that stuck I was so scared of having a little girl though all I had ever wanted was girls... I found out at our big scan what we were having just so I wouldn't go thru the birth and have the fears problems I felt I would have in how could I love another little girl the way I love my Katy...we went on to have a little boy I was so releived... I knew I could love a little boy but was so worried about a daughter...

anyway I have rambled enough I think the fear of having another baby and will you love that child as much is to be expected I think even mothers who have their firstborns with them go thru that fear how can I love another child this much do I have enough love to go around I am currently pg with Katy's 2nd sister/brother and am again terrified I wont have enough love to give

oh and this time I would love a little girl my fears have disappeared