okay so i resisted and havent done a test this morning maybe i'll try and wait till wednesday if AF hasnt arrived before then. i'm so stuck between wanting to be positive and then not getting my hopes up so i dont get so sad when AF arrives. i think i would really like to ge pg this month as this is when i got pg with Lani last year. it would then mean that the baby would be born before her b'day (I will be having a C/S so i can plan that) to have a healthy baby in my arms on her b'day and then 2 1/2 weeks later on the anniversary of her death wouldnt make it all better i know but i think it would be at least bring a happy element to that time.

Barbara - the story about the alarm made me laugh, thanks!

love to you all

sim
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