Yes I was so sorry and tears flowed when I was reading about Mel. I can not fully comprehend something like that and was so upset for her and DH.
Katiegirl, it was so nice to see a good story today... especially the big kicks all last night. I dream of when that will happen for me and long to have it soon.
With me, I still havent fully got AF. Just spotting, though my temperatures have dipped to close to the cover line. I am sure I will have an enjoyable weekend with it... he he he
I wish everyone a safe and happy weekend and look forward to speaking to you all next week.
Reading about Mel1977 truly broke my heart. I've told some of the girls at work about it and even they shed a tear or two, despite none of us knowing her at all. I can't imagine how painful it must be for her.
I'm glad to hear about Katiegirl being kicked though!
When I see all of you talking about temperatures and I was at the beginning of a cycle I figured I might try charting my temp now, too. However, since one of our two beloved little cat babies never came home on Tuesday night and has been missing since, I've been a wreck -- I finally started to see a hint of light in the future after losing our baby and BOOM, I found out that the devil wasn't done with me. I haven't slept properly for days, I am puking and not able to eat, my temp has been 36.9, 36.2 and then 36.8 the last three days, and both me and the hubby have admitted that we can't bring ourselves to have sex right now. I have no idea if some of you think it's dumb to be so broken up over a cat, but we definitely have been kicked when we were down.
Katiegirl--Congrats on the baby kicks! Sounds like you've got yourself a little gymnast in there! How cute, I can just imagine her in there giggling, not letting her daddy feel her kicks! See, she's testing him already!
Tildy--Oh, I don't think it's dumb about the kitten at all! My DF found some ducklings at his work that had to be moved, and the mom flew away and left them. So he brought them home, and they were so cute, and everyone loved them, and we showed them off in DS class... We awoke in the morning to find only 2 left alive. By the next morning they were all gone, and the last one we really thought would make it, it cuddled and snuggled with me all day long, but before bed that night I went to check on it, and he was gone. It was a painful blow... too familiar, too soon... so I know exactly how you feel! I'm so sorry! Seems like things like that always happen at the most inopportune times. Yesterday I was researching something on a site I must've gone to when I was pg, and it said "welcome back, Jenny, your baby is 30 weeks today". It was a pretty big downer... and then Mel's story just broke my heart... I'm for you that you find your strength and keep your faith! Don't forget we're all here for you!
you're not being silly about your pets, our cat helped me after the loss, then we got a puppy a few weeks ago which was great, and I'd be devastated if anything happened to them. I hope you find her.
Don't give up on the charting... I only just started again and my first few temps were all over the place, but have steadied since I started taking them at the same time every day, even setting my alarm. You may not be able to TTC yet but it may help you the month that you do feel like it.
Tildy - I understand how you feel about your cat. I had a cat for 16 years growing up and he died when I was 21 and I still get upset about it - 11 years later!!! It is a bit of joke in our family that I still have photos of him in a frame at home and get upset. He was my best friend for 16 years - so yes I know how feel.
Take time with TTC - but you know my sister who has had 2 late losses gave me some advice back in Jan that really stuck with me. I had gone home to visit my family and after 6 weeks of spotting and finally thinking this were ok, I started spotting again. It sent me into a decline - and as she has been through this she was the one who was able to talk to me about it properly. She told me that we shouldn't put off TTC for too long or else we would get too scared to start. She said it had happened to her and her DH after their 2nd late loss - and that she didn't want it to happen to me. It really hit home with me, and I am glad that I listened. So basically listen to yourself and work out when it best for you - but don't be too scared to start.
Ok must go clean the same sister above and her DH and 4 children (yes she has 4 as well as her 2 angels) are coming to stay in our 2 bedroom apartment for 4 days!!! Need to childproof this place.
Katie is right... I think I've come to the "too scared" stage. Right after we lost Hamish I desperately wanted a baby to hold and wanted to be pregnant immediately. But now, almost three months on I'm so petrified of TTC, being pregnant, going to ultrasounds, waiting for heartbeats and most of all, of holding another dead baby in my arms.
I do have my grand plan of doing my naturopathic pre-conception program for six months then TTC in October but it's also a crutch to lean on.
A friend asked me when we'll TTC again and I said "when I'm better" and she said "by better do you mean when you don't hurt anymore? are you waiting for your heart to go numb?". It's true, I want this sadness and loneliness to subside, but I guess it never will.
Katie, if you go to Joshua's service and get to talk to Mel, please hug her for me too.
Oh, and aren't those kicks the best? Has your DH felt one yet?
Hi Hammi - yes that advice has always stuck with me. Once I found out I was preg I suddenly realised how terrifying it was. It is only now that I am getting regular movement that I can feel myself relaxing a bit. I am sure you will know when the time is right. For me, I wanted to start trying straight away, and the constant spotting I had really messed with my head. Good luck with your naturopathy. I have found it to be really useful and comforting for me.
I will be going to Joshua's service on Monday - as will a few other BB women.
And no DH still hasn't felt bub's move - she is definitely playing games with him!!!
It was a painful blow... too familiar, too soon... so I know exactly how you feel! I'm so sorry! 
Seems like things like that always happen at the most inopportune times. Yesterday I was researching something on a site I must've gone to when I was pg, and it said "welcome back, Jenny, your baby is 30 weeks today". It was a pretty big downer... and then Mel's story just broke my heart... 
for you that you find your strength and keep your faith! Don't forget we're all here for you!
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