Hello Ladies

I have to apologise as I've been reading your posts for a few days and have not had the courage to post one of my own. Sadly we lost our baby girl Charlie on June 14 at 23 wks and DH and I are now working through the decision about when to ttc again. We are thinking September which will be third cycle since we had Charlie.

As you all know the decision comes with such mixed emotions... part excitement, part sadness, part fear. I wish none of you had went through what you have, but i'm grateful that you have in that it has helped me feel that I'm not the only person in the world who is going through this.

I was wondering what it was for each of you that let you know you were ready to ttc again. Both DH and I feel like we are ready, even though at the time when we lost Charlie I did not think I would ever have the courage to get pregnant again. I went from that to needing desparately to be pregnant again but feeling like it was inappropriate and being too scared to tell anyone.

I have absolutely no concerns that I am trying to replace Charlie, she has her very own place in my heart and I think people who suggest you are trying to do that have no idea, but I do want that feeling of being pregnant back and hopefully the happy ending with a beautiful baby to take home.

I don't know if any of that makes sense but anyway... hi from me and thank you for all your support... even if you haven't been aware you've been giving it!!

Paula
xox