Oh hun, I just want to give you a huge hug and tell you I wish I could make this heartache go away...It's just so awful to miss your little boy, he should be here. I often wonder about Joshua and what stage he'd be at, and how big he'd be now. My gut feeling is that if I was still pregnant, he would be born late Dec early Jan as my firbroid was taking a bit of room down there..Yet, there is no baby to hold and I feel really empty inside. I have Joshua's little place in my house, and he's surrounded by every angel I could find, I bought him 'Baby's First Christams' snow ball , a fireplace thingy that lights up and has a baby's christmas stocking hanging on it, and a rocking horse with a little teddy with a santa's hat on it, I have 2 photo's of Joshua and my last purchase this christams was a musical snow dome that plays twinkle, twinkle little star. Phew....the list goes on ! It makes me feel good buying little things for him ( you don't want to know what I bought for the christams tree ...) and although my DF thinks I'm going mad sometimes, I don't care. I feel good doing it, and I feel close to my little angel. I also have conversations with him in my head and then when I go to bed I talk to him and say a little prayer for him and ask my relatives to look after him until I get there, and again, I feel so close to him.
So, acknowledge your beautiful son as much as you can, because even though he never opened his eyes here on earth like Joshua, he was very much here and he is very real. One day when it's our time to go, we will be reunited with our little boys and we can give them these huge hugs and kisses and we'll never have to be apart again.
I'm sending you lots of love and suport and strength Theresa, I truly hope your suffering gets less and less each day, and you are at peace.
and tell you I wish I could make this heartache go away...It's just so awful to miss your little boy, he should be here. I often wonder about Joshua and what stage he'd be at, and how big he'd be now. My gut feeling is that if I was still pregnant, he would be born late Dec early Jan as my firbroid was taking a bit of room down there..Yet, there is no baby to hold and I feel really empty inside. I have Joshua's little place in my house, and he's surrounded by every angel I could find, I bought him 'Baby's First Christams' snow ball , a fireplace thingy that lights up and has a baby's christmas stocking hanging on it, and a rocking horse with a little teddy with a santa's hat on it, I have 2 photo's of Joshua and my last purchase this christams was a musical snow dome that plays twinkle, twinkle little star. Phew....the list goes on ! It makes me feel good buying little things for him ( you don't want to know what I bought for the christams tree ...) and although my DF thinks I'm going mad sometimes, I don't care. I feel good doing it, and I feel close to my little angel. I also have conversations with him in my head and then when I go to bed I talk to him and say a little prayer for him and ask my relatives to look after him until I get there, and again, I feel so close to him.
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