Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for their kind words during this difficult time. I am really struggling with it all and have not been coping too well. I have never experienced such turmoil and heartache. Sorry for the lack of personals but I just don't have the energy right now.
Thanks again everyone - your support has gotten me through this Christmas period. xxx
Oh hun, I just want to give you a huge hug and tell you I wish I could make this heartache go away...It's just so awful to miss your little boy, he should be here. I often wonder about Joshua and what stage he'd be at, and how big he'd be now. My gut feeling is that if I was still pregnant, he would be born late Dec early Jan as my firbroid was taking a bit of room down there..Yet, there is no baby to hold and I feel really empty inside. I have Joshua's little place in my house, and he's surrounded by every angel I could find, I bought him 'Baby's First Christams' snow ball , a fireplace thingy that lights up and has a baby's christmas stocking hanging on it, and a rocking horse with a little teddy with a santa's hat on it, I have 2 photo's of Joshua and my last purchase this christams was a musical snow dome that plays twinkle, twinkle little star. Phew....the list goes on ! It makes me feel good buying little things for him ( you don't want to know what I bought for the christams tree ...) and although my DF thinks I'm going mad sometimes, I don't care. I feel good doing it, and I feel close to my little angel. I also have conversations with him in my head and then when I go to bed I talk to him and say a little prayer for him and ask my relatives to look after him until I get there, and again, I feel so close to him.
So, acknowledge your beautiful son as much as you can, because even though he never opened his eyes here on earth like Joshua, he was very much here and he is very real. One day when it's our time to go, we will be reunited with our little boys and we can give them these huge hugs and kisses and we'll never have to be apart again.
I'm sending you lots of love and suport and strength Theresa, I truly hope your suffering gets less and less each day, and you are at peace.
Well I had an Ob appointment today and I got to hear bubs kicking away and a nice strong heartbeat. We also went through the morphology scan and the Ob was saying everything was good.
Oh and I found out today that the placenta is sitting at the front of my stomach and thats the reason I cant feel bubs all the time and only when I lay on my side and bub is on its side that I feel her.
I will have to wait a little longer to get movements all the time!!! bugger.
Rozzie - I also have a few little/dont care issues as well. My hips at night are a killer and I am getting indigestion as well - and I am only in my 2nd trimester!!! I spoke to the Ob this morning about the hips and he just said "wait a bit longer and it will get worse!!!).
Beata - what do you have to go through when you have your fibroids removed????
Zachary's Mum - I am so sorry you are going through a rough time. It is so understandable and I am glad that if we helped a little, thats what this website is all about. to you....
I'm so glad everything is looking good, yey ! Too bad about the hips hurting, I'm guessing only, is it because everything there is stretching slowly ?? If that's the case, you poor thing... But, just think about the end result, a beautiful baby girl and it will all be so worth it. You can do it !!!!
Re my operation, the fibroid is going to be removed with an operation called myomectomy where they'll go into the uterus like a c cection and remove the big lump. Then they'll stich it up and I'll have to wait about 3 months ( so the uterus is healed ) to do another cycle of IVF . I'll be off work for 6 weeks ( yey !! ). I have one blast bub on ice...I'm praying this one latches on like Joshua did....The doctor told me with my next pregnancy, I'll probably have a c section at 38 weeks as there is a risk of the uterus bursting if I attempt a vaginal delivery. Bugger, I would have loved to experience it again with a full term baby, but at the end of the day, a healthy and happy baby is all that counts.
Well I wish you all the best for your operation and definately 2009 will be your year to conceive a little bubs. I will have all my fingers and toes crossed for you.
I have been down the IVF track, its can be quite daunting isnt it. We were successful first time as well, but unfortunately and this is my gut feeling and I know I am right..... I am on a drug called metformin for insulin resistance and my Ob (not the one I have now) told me to stop taking it at around 9 weeks, which I did trusting him, unfortunately my little bubs stopped growing at that stage and I MC @ 12 weeks.
I also had a little frostie, but unfortunately it didnt come out of the unfreezing stage, but I got pregnant that month naturally.
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and tell you I wish I could make this heartache go away...It's just so awful to miss your little boy, he should be here. I often wonder about Joshua and what stage he'd be at, and how big he'd be now. My gut feeling is that if I was still pregnant, he would be born late Dec early Jan as my firbroid was taking a bit of room down there..Yet, there is no baby to hold and I feel really empty inside. I have Joshua's little place in my house, and he's surrounded by every angel I could find, I bought him 'Baby's First Christams' snow ball , a fireplace thingy that lights up and has a baby's christmas stocking hanging on it, and a rocking horse with a little teddy with a santa's hat on it, I have 2 photo's of Joshua and my last purchase this christams was a musical snow dome that plays twinkle, twinkle little star. Phew....the list goes on ! It makes me feel good buying little things for him ( you don't want to know what I bought for the christams tree ...) and although my DF thinks I'm going mad sometimes, I don't care. I feel good doing it, and I feel close to my little angel. I also have conversations with him in my head and then when I go to bed I talk to him and say a little prayer for him and ask my relatives to look after him until I get there, and again, I feel so close to him.
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