Beata, I always think of Lily (Sue's miracle girl) whenever I need some hope. I was reading our old post the other day and saw the one where Sue said that she just lost frostie and we were all so down for her but then she and her DH got preggers all by themselves. I hope your operation goes smoothly (it's a big and scary one!!) and that you'll get a BFP as soon as your body has recovered.
Theresa, I'm sorry you are missing your boy so much. You have every right to and I don't know what to do to make you feel better. Only that I understand your pain and wish with all my might that Zachary is holding you tight when you need him the most.
Everybody, I've finally heard from Jo (Madison's mum, not Luke's mum). Sounds like she had the same crappy December we all did.
Rozzie, how big are you? All over big or just tummy big. I hope I'll get to see you again before you have your bub so I can see you in full bloom. I told David that you're one week away from entering 3rd tri and he dedicated a song on Guitar Hero to you and Alec and bubs :-) To think that when we saw you, I think you were just 14wks.
Sue did you get to see Lily or just listen? I'm currently reading Francesca Naish's 'The Natural Way to a Better Pregnancy and she's totally against ultrasounds which has put me into a bother as I was planning to totally assault the ultrasound machine like Katie did to keep my sanity when I finally get my BFP. How to balance being an earth mother hippy type with being programmed as a freaked out paranoid mother type?
Speaking of BFP's, I'm going to buy a pee stick on Fri which will be CD29 and test on Sun if AF doesn't show her face. BB's are still big and feeling very tired today. More signs? Please?
Everyone else must be on holidays. I want to hear from Helen, see if her naughty bub has kicked up more of a storm.
Lan, thanks hun, I'm looking forward to getting that fibroid out but pooing myself at the same time about the pain and recovery !!!! But you know what they say, no pain no gain !
So glad to hear you BB's are still heavy..good sign I think. I can't believe I won't be able to check on how you went until I come back from my holiday next week ! Fingers crossed hun, I hope AF stays well away..GOOD LUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wishing you millions and trillions sticky vibes
Lan -- now I'm all excited and nervous for the weekend! I really hope AF stays away and that we get a long-awaited and well-deserved BFP in here. It's been a while!
So is Jo (relatively) ok? It's nice to hear she's still among the living! Did you tell her we were all asking after her?
Beata -- my SIL had 4 miscarriages in a row because of fibroids. I do not believe she had one big one like you have, but rather lots and lots of them. Every one of her miscarriages was in week 12. But after she changed doctors and they gave her a good work-up, removed the fibroids and put her on aspirin to keep them from growing back, she had her little girl that is 3 years old now. So I have no reason to expect anything less for you!
Sue -- figures that your placenta would be in the front so that you don't get as many kicks as you'd like! But it's nice with a great scan -- I haven't had one for 7 weeks now I just realized, so I'm hoping I get one when I next see the high risk OB in week 30.
Theresa -- I know what you mean about never having experienced this kind of turmoil. I know you feel like you're not coping well, but I don't believe you're coping any less heroically than a person in your situation can be expected to. I have my "light at the end of the tunnel" coming in April, but I'm starting to cry more and more every day, sometimes sinking back into that same black pit that I thought I'd crawled my way out of. It's not fun to feel "broken," but I really think that you're not handling it any worse than you should. I know it's maybe both comforting and depressing to hear me say that your despair is normal and might last a while... but the important thing is that you don't feel like a failure for not being chipper and happy.
Paula -- now you're 3 days pregnant!
Rozzie -- I'm sort of waiting for the third trimester to hit like a ton of bricks. I've been having lots of tiny little issues, but no major ones, except for this constant bull**** with my sinuses. I have a bit of hip pain, a bit of shortness of breath when I go up the stairs, etc... tiny, almost unnoticeable quibbles that merely serve to remind me that Kebab is in there. My belly certainly doesn't remind me, as it still hasn't gotten big enough to make a noticeable difference! I'm sort of like "What, I used to weigh 115 kg, and this is all you've got? Bring it on!"
I've been going to a chiropractor for the hip pain and it's really gotten a lot better -- but typical! I'm in for some major hurt later tonight, as I fell on the stairs this morning when I got up to let the cats out! I bounced down 3 or 4 of them on my butt, and DH came SPEEDING from the bedroom. He said "I was just lying in bed thinking that I should probably be letting the cats out because you might be tired and clumsy and fall down on your stomach and something will happen to Kebab, and right then I heard you fall!" So I'm banned from cat duty from now on! But everything seems good -- it's been 5 hours and nothing hurts, nothing is bleeding or leaking, and Kebab is kicking away... sheesh!
DH and I are in an interesting situation before New Year's... our closest friends seem to be splitting up after 8+ years together, and the female half of the couple seems to have been in the hospital after a suicide attempt. So we're quite full up trying to figure out our best course of action in order to be supportive and fair but not pushy or too self-sacrificing. I know I can't fix her, but I hope that I can offer her a hand to hold or a person to sit next to and drink coffee, which is what I would have wished for my friends to do after losing Beiron but I didn't really get much of.
Hi lovely ladies. I am sorry I have not been around the past week or so. We are in Brisbane with my family for Christmas. I know that this Christmas and New Year period are very difficult and bring along with it many difficult emotions. I hope you are all okay and just allow yourself plenty of time alone if that is what you need. Don't make yourself be sociable if you think it will be too upsetting. I hope 2009 is kinder to all of you.
Glad to hear you're going well ( apart from that fall on the stairs !!!! naughty girl, stay away from stairs they're evil ! he he he ). You know when you said you're hardly showing at the moment, well, when I was 3 months pregnant my belly was the size of a 6 month pregnancy because of the IVF drugs and the massive fibroid. At work, I didn't want people to find out until I had my 12 week scan, but they suspected I was pregnant and the rumours were flying high. It was awful to dodge them.
I suspect your SIL kept having miscarriages because if she had that many small fibroids they probably prevented the embyos from sticking properly in the wall. I have read and heard of so many women with fibroids ( some of the fibroids a decent size ! ) that have successfuly gone on to get pregnant and carry to full term. In some cases the 3 to 5 cm fibroids just disappeared with the pregnancy progressing ! How's that ! Didn't happen to me though, my fibroid just went crazy. I know if my doctor thought it was going to behave like it did, he would have removed it ( while it was still a respecable size of about 8 x 7 cm - now it's 11 x 11 cm ) before I attempeted to get pregnant. The fibroid's blood supply got cut off and is now dead, around the time Joshua was born, so I guess that was his mission here on earth, becuase had he not been in my belly, the fibroid would have been growing still.
I'm sorry to hear about your friends splitting up. I think the best thing you can do is just be there for your friend as she'll probably need a shoulder to cry on. It is a shame you didn't have that support when you lost Beiron, that's why we surround ourselves with our closest friends, counting on them to be there if tragedy stikes.
Sending you big hugs and good luck in your next scan ! Go little Kebab !
Hi Katie, just saw your post. Hope you're going OK with your bub .
Sulking! Couldn't help myself and bought a pee stick and peed and got a big fat BFN. I really expected two lines to show up. Boo hoo. It's CD27 today. Shouldn't it be positive by now if there's anybody in my belly?
Hello everybody, just a really quick one, I feel like my feet haven't hit the floor lately! I think all is ok on my end, and I have to say Lan that my naughty little baby hasn't put much of a show on at all, even had about 3 days of nothing! It is just so different to the boys, once they started to move there wasn't any stopping them, but this one is just trying to test my sanity I think. Scan on Tuesday, BRING IT ON!!!!
Lan - Do remember when I was testing and nothing was coming up and then only the slightest of slightest line for like over a week after AF due??? You kept telling me to be patient, well I am now telling you the same thing! Katie was the same I think, didn't get her BFP until after AF, and just look at our gorgeous little mascot! Here's hoping that BFP is still coming.
Theresa - I have only hugs for you, don't feel like you 'have' to be strong, it is sadly going to take a lot of hurt before you start to live life without Zachary in your arms, but he will ALWAYS be in your heart and soul.
Laney - I can't believe your sister was so incensitive, I wanted to smack her for you! Hugs to you too.
Hi to everyone else I really need to get myself moving again, we have a party at neighbours place tonight, so at least I can come home whenever I want to. Happy New Year to all!
Lan, Lan , patience dear ! It might be too soon to know, please be patient. Still have my fingers and toes crossed for you, I know you'll by eyeing off another pregnancy stick soon....Put it down !!!!!
Helen, all the best for your scan on tuesday ! You know, now the bubs will be very busy in there since you're wishing for more action !
To all you lovely girls, I wish you a happy, healthy and peaceful 2009, may it bring you all you've hoped for and more, may it bring little bubs to all TTC and may all the girls with little bubs in their bellies have good labours and healthy bubs in 2009 !
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