Gosh I missed you all, can't believe I was made to go on a holiday without the internet !!!! Holiday was good, I must say, but now I'm freaking out about my operation next week ( help !!!!!! ).
I've just been catching up on all your activity.....
Theresa, congrats hun on your engagement, I'm so excited for you !!! Yeepee ! Now we're both engaged, although I have been engaged for almost 2 years ( not in a hurry either,the whole wedding planning is stressing me out a bit ). I hope your're feeling more positive now, and that you get your miracle soon. You so deserve all the happiness in the world.
Jo, I'm so happy you've made it to week 24 !!! That is such a milestone. I hope it's a smooth road from here on. I just love the picture of your beautiful girl, she's just precious.
Jo76, I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time..I hope it gets better soon.. can't believe that girlfriend of your brother's though, I would just slap her ! All of my DF sisters and SIL's smoked during their pregnancies, and when I pointed out to them the harm they were inflicting on their babies, they just laughed at me...helloooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 WTF .
Sue, fantastic news on your scan ! Yey !! It must have been very exciting buying all the baby stuff, I never got to do it with Joshua, but for my next baby I will start buying straight away, no matter what outcome it may be. I feel I missed out there....
Lan, how are you going hun ? When do you ovulate next ????? Waiting and praying for a big fat BFP soon !!!!!
Paula, how's your charting going ? I had goosebumps reading about the song 'Angel' that came on. I think Charlie was definitely there with you. I believe in signs like that, I often ask Joshua to let me know he's around.
Tildy, good luck for your next scan hun, I hope all goes well . I think the swooshing in your belly is your little Kebab doing acrobatics....
Diana, I so hope you get your BFP soon hun. Fingers and toes crossed. I also didn't realise you've lost your beautiful mum, and I am so sorry. I think by having Sebastian burried with your mum was so touching, they'll always be together until you all meet again. It must be so comforting..I also had goosebumps about the butterflies...
Laney, I hope all is well with your bub, sending you huge hugs xxx
Cindee, congrats on your baby girl
Dee81, I'm so sorry that you've lost your little Lacey. Good luck with TTC and I hope you get an earth baby soon. Many tons of baby dust to you !!!
Helen, here's to the very long, nice cervix !!! Yeepee !!!
Rozzie, congrats on your scan hun, please don't go anywhere, we love you here !
Megan, good luck with TTC, hope you get your miracle soon.
Teagz_88, I'm so sorry for your loss. When I lost Joshua my placenta had to be removed manually, and then about a week later I had a huge bleed ( huge egg size clots, sorry TMI ). AF came 4 weeks later, and I've been having regular AF since.
I hope you get a BFP soon hun, all the best to you.
Phew, I hope I covered everybody ! If I've forgotten somebody or got my messages mixed up, I'm so sorry, my head is still spinning from being away from you all for so long !!!
Beata - Welcome back! Glad you had a good holiday. We are looking at the 2 year mark (or maybe longer) but we will get there! When we do we are going to get married on a ship. It was going to be Fiji but we like the idea of getting married on a cruise......
dd0207 - I just want to give you the biggest I hope you are feeling better and not so frustrated (although I can understand why).
dd0207 & Hammi - I am thinking of waiting until next week to test as I have been late before and I don't want to see a BFN. I am scared of seeing that BFN and it makes me want to cry so I am holding onto hope and praying AF will not arrive and I can test next week. Will let yo know when I do.
Teagz - If it is meant to be it is meant to be. Don't be too hard on yourself.
Rozzie - Thanks for the advice. It makes me feel better knowing it could still happen. I hope you are feeling better soon. Take care of yourself. We love you so to you.
AFM - I guess I am just feeling like I am doing something wrong. It only took us 4 months to fall pg with Zachary and we weren't even trying that hard or "obsessing" the way I am now. It is heading onto the 6 month stage and I feel like I am a failure. I keep thinking that maybe I am charting incorrectly and getting my dates wrong - it is confusing me now. Should I keep doing it or just forget about it all and see if nature takes its own course?
I just want a baby so desperately and I am not the most patient person in the world when it comes to the things I really want!!!!
Diana, I'm so sorry that you're feeling so mental ATM. I can imagine this whole cycle thing must be driving you nuts. Just remember though, sometimes it can take a huge amount of time for your cycle to become regular again. After all, you were regular like clockwork B4 you lost your little boy. But the grief of losing your baby, and the stress your body has been thru, no wonder your cycles are all over the place. I really don't know how to advise you hun, but I believe being 38 you should look at other options if your cycles are not regulated soon.
I had to do IVF for 2 reasons,1) my DF sperm count is very low after an unsuccessful versectomy reversal in April 2008, and 2) my age.
Before the urologist did my DF's reversal, he actually advised us to do IVF without spending the $4500 on the operation, as he said IVF would be quicker and cheaper. But we so wanted to get pregnant naturally, we didn't care about the money. It turned out the operation was a flop, and we had to fo IVF anyway.....
I got pregnant straight away, but I believe it was because I wasn't that stressed about the whole thing especially when I realized the injections were a breeze. That's what I stressed about the most, but after my first one, I was so relieved that it wasn't so bad. I reaslised it was a small price to pay for a beautiful baby at the end of it all. Having said all that, I do reaslise and appreciate that for some women IVF is a very hard journey. I believe it's a lot to do with the fact that sometimes the choice is taken out of your hands, and you suddenly leave everything to the people in white coats, and you suddenly feel so out of control, it is very strssful. The other thing is, some women go thru so many cycles that their bodies go thru hell and hence the stress levels go up.
Try if you can to think positive thoughts ( I know, I know... ) and imagine that your cycles are regular, and see what happens. Sorry, I do know it's so much easier said than done.
That's so romantic to get married on a cruize ! I wish I had all these nice ideas, but the truth is I am scared of all the pressure of the big day and wish I could just run to the registry office and get married with a witness and no more !! The only thing is, my mum would be so dissapointed as I am her only daughter....the pressure !
You know, I totally understand your frasturation of getting it all right. But just think, when you weren't putting pressure on falling pregnant, it happened without too much trouble. Now, when you're getting stressed about when you're ovulating etc, it's not happening.
My gynie once said to me, ' The trick is, some people make love once in a blue moon, and no wonder that they're not getting pregnant. If you have intercourse regularly, the chances of you falling pregnant is a lot higher, as you are bound to make love somewhere around the time you ovulate'. It just made a lot sense to me at the time.
I think he said to do the deed 2 to 3 times a week......Sorry, no rest for the wicked I'm afraid !
I know it will happen for you Theresa, just be patient and be kind to yourself. Don't put so much pressure on yourself, and I'm sure it will happen soon.
Thanks for the hugs Teagz, Theresa and Beata. I sure needed them yesterday. I was as cranky and as frustrated as hell. Feeling much better after a good sleep.
Teagz, I agree. I think we can all be fertility specialists now! I always tell my FS I could go work for him as I know so much now... and I'd be near an u/s machine daily for when I fall pg again... he just looks at me sadly (or with pity) and laughs.
Theresa, I really hope AF stays away and you get those pretty 2 lines. Everything is crossed for you. Like Beata said, BD every second or third day and I think you should pop your chart up here (like Paula) and have the girls analyse it for you - we have some experts among us!
Beata, welcome back hun. We missed you. Hope you had a lovely time away. Where are you at with your cycle? Thanks, your message did help. Im not nervous or anxious at all about the actual process as I did the injections (with IUI) last month and they are not bad at all. I am obsessing that there is some underlying damage done after the 2 curettes that is stopping implantation. I really have to stop being so paranoid and trust my FS don't I?
DH said he will leave the decision up to me. He is happy to go with whatever I decide so will do some more thinking this weekend.
I have a party tonight and the dress up theme is "brown and gold" - the guy is a huge Hawthorn AFL supporter. What an outrage, does not compliment my complexion at all !!
Thanks hun, good to be back home...I'm just waiting for AF to arrive today or tomorrow ( I have the symptoms ). I can't do much at the moment because the fibroid has to come out, and then I was told to wait about 3 months for my uterus to heal before attempting another transfer. I really don't know how my cycles will be after the operation ( my cycles are always 29 days, even after Joshua was born I went back to normal after 5 weeks - the only thing different so far is that my BB are not sore for a week before AF like always....???? ), but I'm hoping there won't be a problem....fingers crossed. The doc told me it will be a similar thing to a c/s but I haven't had one before so I don't know what to expect, except bad pain I assume !
Look hun, I can imagine it must be so frasturating when your cycles are so irregular. I'm not sure about the lining after 2 currettes, I imagine it could be a little thinner ???? Like you said hun, put your trust in the FS hands, I did with Peter Lutjen ( he's my IVF sperialist ) and I believe he's helping me achieve my little miracle.
Keep me posted hun.
I have a girfriend at work who is my age and they can't work out why she isn't getting pregnant, she's tried different things to no avail. I think she's thinking now about IVF as she thinks she might be trying for another 12 months or more and still not be pregnant, and she feels the time is running out so to speak. She got pregnant last year in June just after she came back from her honeymoon, but lost her baby at 8 weeks. She said her cycles have not been normal since her miscarriage.
She told me she had problems with endo previously, but it's all been fixed up now so there is no reason ATM why she can't get preggo ( apart from irregular cycles ).
Oh yes sorry, I knew you were getting your fibroid out, silly me. A few months is not so long to wait (I imagine it feels like a lifetime for you though). Not long now before you get it removed and I am sure the procedure will go perfectly and then you can start TTC again. Same for me, my BB are not sore before AF anymore either! The only time they got sore was when I was on meds. How weird.
My lining is always between 7-9mm around O time so he says it's fine. Oh I don't know... or maybe I do - I am such a drama queen.
Thanks for the pep talk, my FS thinks I shouldn't waste any time either as I might be trying for months then back to this point. From my last post to now, I have made a decision. I am going to try IVF. I want to give myself the best chance and with my erratic cycles ATM , I don't think it's going to happen that easily if I leave it up to nature.
I hope your friend at work gets her little miracle soon. It's nice to have someone close to talk to I imagine. I only talk to you girlies in here about all this stuff and I thank God for the day I found you all.
Morning Lovey's! How frikken hot is it?
Diana, I don't think you're being a drama queen at all! I've been waiting only 4 and a bit weeks for AF to arive and I'm already antzy about it not becoming regular, I can't even begin to imagine how you're feeling. I really do hope that IVF works for you first shot You'll have to keep us update on everything
Beata, Thankyou for the wishes Where did you go for your holidays? I'm with ya on the registry office! I'm mum's only daughter as well and she'd be devistated if we did that as well. We had planned to get married in October this year but have decided to move it back as DF doesn't want me stressing out organising a wedding while we're TTC or while I'm preg (although I can't seem to get it through his head that it would be nice to have something happy & positive to look forward to that is actually guaranteed to happen iykwim, but he won't budge!). When I told mum the look on her face almost killed me And we're only moving it back!
Zachary's Mom, It will happen! I feel it in me waters! Don't be to hard on yourself either
AFM, I'm getting some dull cramping so hopefully AF is only a week or so away!
Last edited by helle; January 10th, 2009 at 11:10 AM.
Firstly, I agree that all preggos should definetly stay, it wouldn't be the same with out you all, we need the encouragement!
Tildy, just catching up on your last few posts - hope you are doing ok hun, you obviously have a lot going on. Thinking of you & hope little kebab is kicking away nicely! This may sound funny but whenever I drive past a Kebab shop now, I think of you!
Diana, I can imagine how frustrated you must be with your cycle at the moment. This is my first month trying & feel like if I don't get a BFP this month I'll be so disappointed, which is ridiculous on my first month I know! I think your making a good move doing IVF, although I agree that 5-months isn't really long at all. A lot of my girlfriends in there early 30's have taken much longer than that. Fingers crossed for you that you hit the jackpot first go
Beata, when is your op? (sorry if you have already told us). You must be keen to get it over and done with and start TTC again.
Theresa, I feel for you as well, but I agree that 6-months is certainly not out of the ball park. I can see it now that if I haven't had a BFP in 6-months you'll all be saying the same thing back to me and I'll be like, yeah right 6-mths is ages - LOL. But in reality it is quite normal. I agree that you should keep taking notes of your cycle so you have info but keeping DTD throughout. Let us know if you have any questions re: tracking dates, you want to feel confident that you are doing it correctly. I am sure you'll get a BFP soon.
Hey Lan & Paula, hope your ttc marathon is going well - LOL. We are in the midst of it at the moment. This temping thing is really good!
Rozzie, bit concerned about you. Hope you are feeling much better now & keeping the fluids down. Make sure you are completely better before returning to work won't you.
Teagz, a wedding cruise sounds lovely. Something to look forward to. Hope you get your BFP soon as well
Well I hope this doesn't sounds like I'm turning into psycho woman, but I am now tracking ferns, temps, cycle dates and now even adding a 'H' for horny But feel like I've got every base covered. Got to laugh & yes I know I do sound a bit psycho!
Tildy - Thanks for that - I guess I kinda blame myself for stressing and then not falling pg. It is good to know not to listen to people who haven't been in our shoes. You are an inspiration with such a huge weight loss. I still haven't lost all my pregnancy weight and I often look in the mirror and am not overly pleased at the body that looks back at me. I don't want to get married until I have lost at least 10kgs (and after we have our baby). I did have to giggle at the fact that we do seem to share rather personal info but we all find it so easy to do! It is great to feel so comfortable.
Berry1 - I know 6 months is technically not long but it feels like a lifetime to me. My OB said that up to 12 mnths is still considered normal for TTC but I don't want to wait anymore! I keep wondering if there might be something wrong as we DTD every day for 5 days over my O days and still nothing - oh well - keep on trying.
Teagz - Thanks
dd0207 - Good for you and I wish you all the luck in the world. What chart do you use? Or anyone else for that matter. Mine is just on excel? I hope you are having fun at your party!
Beata - I like the idea of a cruise wedding as they do most of the organizing and they offer a wedding co-ordinator too if you want one. We are thinking fairly small and low key anyway. My brother is getting married in May and they are having a huge affair - so the pressure is off me for a while anyway! My older sister will be before me - probably next year and my younger sister is already married so I am lucky that I am the last and there is no pressure. My mom is already looking at cruises though We are going to let everyone know a year in advance so they can save u to join us if they want to.
Well I am going to do a cupboard spring clean tomorrow and sort out the shoes that are lying in layers on my cupboard floor. I am sure I don't need that many and I am hoping I can take some to Vinnies etc for someone else to make use of.
I hope you all enjoy the rest of your weekend. xxxx
I do understand that 6-months would feel like a lifetime when you desperately want a baby - I would be the same. You said you tried for 5-days over O, I assume you have a really good idea of when O is? As I usually have a range of when I think O may be (over 4-day), then I try from 4-day before the earliest date to a day or two after the latest O date, so it works out to be about 10-days. But in saying that I have only just starting temping etc, which I am sure gives you a much more accurate idea.
Good-luck for next month, you really deserve a BFP .
I'm back !!!!
! Now we're both engaged, although I have been engaged for almost 2 years ( not in a hurry either,the whole wedding planning is stressing me out a bit ). I hope your're feeling more positive now, and that you get your miracle soon. You so deserve all the happiness in the world.
!!! That is such a milestone. I hope it's a smooth road from here on. I just love the picture of your beautiful girl, she's just precious.
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. I think the swooshing in your belly is your little Kebab doing acrobatics....
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You'll have to keep us update on everything 
And we're only moving it back!
But feel like I've got every base covered. Got to laugh & yes I know I do sound a bit psycho!
We are going to let everyone know a year in advance so they can save u to join us if they want to.
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