Theresa, I agree as well! The last couple of days I've felt a bit down but coming on here and seeing you girls cracking the occassional joke and being so positive lightens my spirit after everything that you's have all been through This little community is a life saver!

dd0207, I'm *still* having really light pink bleeding with no CM now. Sat/Sun i had some CM and then bleeding started Monday with a little but now there isn't any CM at all. I've never had this kind of bleed so I'm not entirely sure what's happening either!

MrsRobbo, thanks for the welcome! I am glad I found this little place because it does make you feel like it's ok to aknowledge and love our little angels. Alot of my friends don't understand the full impact of the situation and I get the impression that because I hadn't known Jayvan physically they think I shouldn't be as upset as I am. Thankfully I have an amazing mum and DF otherwise I don't think I could have kept getting out of bed the last month

AFM, I'm feeling a bit guilty/hopefull this morning. Last night DF and I got a bit carried away DTD and forgot contraception. Guilty being our Dr said to wait at least for the tests results to come back explaining what happened to Jayvan so they can make sure it wouldn't happen again (although he *DID* say if I got pregnant between now and then it wouldn't be a big deal as I'm going to be monitored closly anyway for my next pregnancy) and I was also asked to atleast wait for my next AF. But, I'm hoping that I may get a little 09 miracle. I'm such a sap XD