thanks for your words berry1. i just got a letter in the mail now, they want us to come in next wednesday..i thought it was the 18th but anyway they want us to come meet with the tema of specialist that took our bloods, his and did the post mortem. hubby has a meting 30 minutes from the time so i think i'll have to reschedule. i feel good in a way it will give some sort of closure and in another way i'm pretty scared of what they will say and also going back to that hospital! i hope i can walk away with more of an answer. it's okay though, i guess.
teagz, you're not bad at all.i have an acquaintance (hubby's work mate's wife) that wwe use see now and agian and she is due a day after my boy was due. we were so excited and planning mummy groups etc..i haven't seen her since the week before we lost bub. i just can't stomach it. i don't want to see her belly or her baby for now. i feel bad cos she hasn't done anything wrong and i want her to enjoy it. so you're not bad. i think sensetive people who care about you should understand.you'll be fine hun