Hi Jo, our posts must have crossed over. I think xmas is going to be a killer for all of us. Ethan asked what Charlie would get for xmas. I told him we could buy her something nice and he then said 'but mummy, how will we get it up in the sky to her'! Speaking of Ethan, on the weekend DH said we might all go for a bike ride (we didn't as I was too lazy!) and Ethan said 'yeah and baby Charlie can come too, she can fly next to us' he then went on to say 'i think she's saying yes, she would love that'.

btw, what sort of drugs are your in'laws on. they need a serious slapping, especially your MIL. Is there anyway you can take time off work so you guys can go away over xmas. How horrible if you have to spend such a tough day with such hideous people. As far as your emotions go, the good thing with kids is that they are so excited by xmas that it will take a lot to bing them down. If you're a bit sad and explain to them that you are just missing Madison and Jack then I'm sure they will get it. They sound like pretty sensitive kids and obviously miss their brother and sister a lot. The other good thing about kids is that their excitement and happiness is so infectious. I am counting on that getting me through.

Anyway, take care and feel free to slip arsenic in MILs coffee, none of us will tell. If I was there I would do it for you!!

Paula
xox