Jo -- I know what you mean about being sick and TTC; it's just one more thing that you don't need. And then the fact that there are some rough dates coming up for you soon. And I'm definitely crying as much as I need -- maybe more! I've very suddenly hit a rough patch that actually has little to do with the pregnancy, maybe even BECAUSE the pregnancy has been going so smoothly now for a while. Everything else that was shoved to the back is now surfacing. My counselor was super helpful yesterday, though, and I came home with no less than 7 "homework" assignments from her.

Rozzie -- yes, my scan went well! Everything was as it should be. And today there's suddenly LOTS of activity in there! Bing bang boom, Kebab is starting to beat up mommy a bit. Finally! I know you can't help but be worried when you're not feeling any movement. You have that critical milestone of 22 weeks coming up; remind yourself to take some deep breaths and stay positive!

Hammi -- The baby buggy is still sitting in the car, and we only got half of it home with us anyway (half was at MIL's house and half at SIL's!). :P So I haven't, as one might have expected, taken it out and tested it or whatever... ugh. But I promised myself a while ago that I would buy some baby thing when we hit 20 weeks, I just don't know what yet. Since our house is even more chaotic after us being sick, maybe it'll just be a stuffed animal or something... we're a long ways away from the baby's room being empty and waiting for input. So, when do we get to start crossing our fingers for your BFP?

Sue -- yay for a bump! And for the movements, of course. I personally don't recognize the tickled with a feather/fish tail thing that everyone says -- perhaps I've felt it but never noticed -- but since yesterday I suddenly feel more like actual little kicks and punches and stuff. So I think I skipped over the tickle phase!

Thanks for your kind words, Katie. I think you're right about memories of Beiron; they are coming up very strongly now because I'm finally feeling confident about this pregnancy. That means that instead of grieving Beiron's loss as a bad omen/reason to worry about the future and about this pregnancy, I'm suddenly re-grieving it as its very own incident and it needs to be dealt with anew.

Oh, and I just learned something new, after surfing some pregnancy info after lunch. Aspirin is apparently also used to prevent pre-ecclampsia (sp? It's called havandeskapsf?rgiftning in Swedish!), so there's yet another use of blood thinners. It's funny btw how I often have to look up English words in a Swedish-English dictionary when it comes to pregnancy and TTC -- I never talked about or read about this stuff back home, ha!