hey girls!
i have to say, it is so nice to put some faces to your names, and i am with you hammi (and this includes you!), you girls are gorgeous!! (as well as gorgeous in nature!!)
I am doing a bigger scrapbook of madison and all you messages of support will have their place in there. Partially because my husband has never seen them and i am sure he would get something out of them and i want the memory of all your support in there as it is so amazing and from the start has been a huge part of our pregnancy. It would be nice to be able to also show the kids later how many wonderful people there are in light of heartbreak. I am doing one for her for our family for the same reasons as Jack, so we have something we can look at the same, as any pictures we would for anyone else in our in our family... I kinda fell into the scrapbook thing out of wanting to have a keepsake other than a reg album for my kids. I wanted to be able to write about photos that meant something to me or a moment important to them (and no one else) and the history behind them. If you have'nt figured it out, i am the biggest sentimentalist! And i always thought should anything ever happen to me,(or even Dan) the kids would have their scrapbooks as a memento of how much they were loved and how their little things meant alot.
Mrs Robbo - I totally get the child thing obvously and it IS so hard to know what to say to them. Quite often my kids will say what i have only thought or give new insight into all of this in their innocence and it will literally bring me to tears. It is wonderful that they can feel so protective of their little angels that they don't want anyone else to stamp away that memory eventhough in reality it does'nt. Give it time, eventhough we have had Madison my daughter (almost 4) still calls the spare room Baby Jacks room. (Madison is "Madison" but Jack is still lovingly nicknamed "Baby Jack" by the kids) If Madison had lived to go in there i am not sure what Em would have thought of that!!
Katie - seeing kicks from the outside is quite amazing. Once i was at work and one the girls was looking at my belly, literally move severely, side to side and was slightly freaked out by it. Another noticed a weird shape underneath my top on my right side on top of my belly. It was a foot pushed out into/against my skin so firmly i had this wierd alien bump look coming out and she also freaked out asking what it was so i told her to push her hand against it and she got a fright when it moved and kicked her back! your Dh will love it as it is their physical moment of preg with the baby!
sue -how are you going???? i won't say much but i hope all is good!
hammi - i too will try to remember my 5.5 months of happy times. We did mention in the service about her somersaults to me and in the ultrasounds she would not budge and let them get a good look! She had her mums (and older sis') stubborness! And we now laugh (instead of crying) about how she had her dads ugly shaped toes. See , i have started already! Jack i do remember fondly, madison is maybe still too raw, but i will try and follow your advice! and by the way, i'd hug you and cry all over you right back!
tildy -pls take care at work, i am nervous about returning to a job i know so i can't imagine how you feel! Take it easy and maybe try to see the change as a good thing tho. And it may be a good distraction in the end while you countdown to this baby! Its hard, and it sucks, so i wish you luck!
take care everyone! x jo
Well I am in shock. Just rang the Dr surgery and guess what - it is viable......
I am awaiting the Dr to give me a call back with the HCG Levels (as I want these things) and apparently it had on the notes. Yep definately pregnant....
Jo - You are sounding a little more at peace today? I am hoping it is a good one for you
I looks like I am the only one NOT on Facebook! I will suss it out! Am on day 7 of cycle only just started temping again for the month, I am so impatient with all of this, it drives me insane!
What's your plan now? Are you on any treatment, are you going to keep having tests or just wait things out? The first couple of weeks is the hardest isn't it!!!
Great start to the month, hopefully Helen and Lan aren't far behind.
Look forward to having more BFP in our group. Lan & Helen, I will have my fingers crossed for you both.
Definately getting some testing. I will insist on it, since I have 3 miscarriages in a row.
Dr has organised to have thryoid testing, progesterone, iron etc etc. which I have to pick up the form.
Having 1st ultrasound with Repromed (fertility clinic) on 1/10/08. Feel comfortable going to them still. Even though I conceived naturally, they will still do the first scan.
With the medications I am taking: metformin and thyroxine. Thyroxine is not a problem, but some Ob don't like you taking metformin and some are fine with it.
After last time after having a strong heartbeat, stopping metformin (advice from Ob) and within that week the baby stopped developing, I will not be stopping it and nobody will change my mind.
Sue - congratulations on the BFP and the great HCG results. Very excited for you and I hope that you have a very smooth, healthy and happy pregnancy. Whoo hoo!!!
Jo - lovely to hear from you and you are so kind the way you can offer support to all of us when you are suffering so much yourself.
wow Sue, I can only imagine how you are feeling. I have been sitting here catching up on everyone's posts and my first reaction was disbelief at how wonderful this is. I was so sad for you that little frostie didn't make it and then to have such wonderful news so soon after. Perhaps little frostie knew something we didn't and went to be with his brothers and sisters in heaven to help look over you during your pregancy. My disbelief has now given way to full blown excitement. I think we had all dug our heels (or flats for those PG ladies) in ready to support you through the whole ivf thing and now instead we get to cheer you and little bambini on during pregnancy instead. What wonderful news!
Jo, I love the scrapbook idea! You come up with the best ways to remember and honour your angel babies. I was so excited at the scrapbook I was going to try to do one for David for this Father's Day since it's his first but I'd better take my time and do it properly.
Hello Dellydoo, I don't think I've said hello before. I'm sorry about your very recent loss of little Charles James. I hope you will feel that you can share your feelings and feel supported here with us.
I may have to put my TTC back a bit further because we're in the process of buying a new home then selling our current unit. Very excited about having a new home though. We felt that life could not continue as is with our litte Hamish taken from us. Since Katie is going to have her little girl in Dec, I thought we could do a relay, and I'll take the baton from you then :-)
So happy and excited about all the belly full of babies here!!!
Lan, me and DH are thinking Dec for ttc as well, maybe we can be ttc buddies! I feel like i've had the flu forever and have been so busy lately. Then with starting a new job in Oct we thought a few months break would be good and that Dec would be better timing. How exciting for you and DH to be moving into a new house. It can be stressful though so probably a good idea for you guys to wait a few months and get settled. The last thing you'll need once you get your long awaited BFP is extra stress. I think I will be sitting on the couch wrapped in cotton wool and an outer layer of bubble wrap just for safe measure!! When you do ttc in Dec and you are in your new place it will feel like such a lovely fresh start and you can fill your new place with lots of positive baby vibes!
On another note, I've been trying to think of way to honor Charlie and have decided to grow a veggie garden. We've recently moved to the Gold Coast so are just renting atm but have been researching and you can apparently grow gardens in planter boxes so you can take them with you when you leave. We had wanted to plant a tree but as this isn't our place we would hate to leave it behind. I did plant a tree at a special rememberance place in Byron Bay just after Charlie died but I thought a veggie garden would be something we could tend to regularly and it would kind of be like looking after a baby. I also thought it would be good therapy for those times when you just want to be near your angel baby and don't know how to deal with the sadness of them not being here.
I told DS that we were going to grow a garden filled with all his favorite veggies and without any prompting he said 'I know Mummy, we can get a sign which says Charlie's Garden', he then rang up his Poppy in Victoria who is coming to visit in a few weeks and asked him if he could make the sign for us. So now I'm really excited because it is something everyone can help to build and will give us all a way to be with our little girl.
I should mention though that I have absolutely no gardening skills at all so am planning on taking a few 'how to' books away to Dunk Island to give myself a crash course!!! Surely with so many people caring for it, the garden will have a good chance of surviving even if I am a totally incompetent black thumb!
Anyway, I hope you are all having a good day today. I am so glad I found you girls and am able to share in all your journeys. You are all truly remarkable and give me so much hope and inspiration that I don't know how I would survive otherwise.
Lan, happy to pass the baton on to you come November. My body is starting to get sore and I think I have sciatica, but at you all know it is most definitely worth it. I am off to the osteopath today to try to relieve some of the pain that is radiating through me! That is exciting about your new home. We are hoping to buy early next year, so will have to continue in our unit with the baby for the time being. I want to be out of here by the time our little girl is moved from a bassinette to a cot. See, I am talking about the future, I must be feeling confident!
Dellydoo - I am sorry for the loss of your son Charles James. Please feel welcome to join us here as you will find a wonderful group of supportive women.
Sue - still excited for you. I told DH about it last night...I think it is always so wonderful when someone who has gone through the pains of IVF is given the gift of a baby without it. You sound like you have a good idea of the kind of support you want from your med team. How many week will you be for the first scan?
Mrs Robbo - oh your boy Ethan just makes my heart ache every time I read another of your stories. He is beautiful!!! I love how he called your dad to ask for the sign. It is so special. Oh oh oh!!! They always give me a lovely boost. You are certainly lucky to have such a sensitive boy. Good luck with TTC in Dec. I will pass the baton to you as well!
Hi to all - have to get moving but will touch base later.
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Mrs Robbo - what a fantastic idea of a veggie garden. All the family can be involved and share this special garden. Enjoy your holiday. I am so jealous......
Lan - how exciting on buying a new home. I can totally understand delaying a couple of months as you get really busy moving, changing details etc etc...... congratulations.
Katiegirl - thank you again, feeling a little funny about it still. But have just put a "pregnancy ticker" on. At the scan I will be around 8 weeks (the heartbeat check!!). Though just went to the toilet and had a little pink blood when I wiped, so again I am scared....
I so want this baby, as I know you get the same outcome, but it would be excellent to achieve a baby out of the love of DH and I, not through IVF.
hey girls,
sue : while i get what you are saying, an IVF baby would still be out of love! Just because it comes from a different way does'nt make it any less special, its because of love you have put in the harder yards!!!! I just have the hugest admiration for anyone who has the strength to do that! Just wanted to say! (and i know you mean no offence and neither do i!) Hold tight tho and take care, the spotting may be nothing, but rest up, you deserve it!!!! One of my close friends spent 6ish years on IVF -she now has a gorgeous girl...and trust me after all her heartache and disappointment thru IVF - that little girl is so full of love,hopes and dreams i could'nt even tell you!!! will keep you in my thoughts ...
mrs robbo -have a fab time at dunk island! very jealous....hope it is sunny and you have a lovely time relaxing!
katie - have sat my angel in front of me all day!
hammi - congrats & good luck with the house buying...we did earlier this year and moved further out but it has been a nice move...eventho we were nervous about it... we have friends all over so it has'nt made a difference like we thought it would! thats why freeways are built!!! the packing tho was a nightmare - pay someone to do it! i am never moving again cos of the packing!!!! and dec is not too far away...how exciting, so much to look forward too! you will be busy for great reasons!
hgirs - after you said i sounded at peace i re-read my post!lol! The last 2 days yes, i spoke the friend i mentioned above (she lives in TAS) and i had'nt spoken to her for a month so i guess i was on a high still cos of that. Also i spoke to work and she said to just see how it goes on monday and was totally fine with my nerves etc so i guess that made me feel a little better about that too...
cindee - glad you can see the positives even with M/S! keep it going, hope you doc appoint went well and gave you even more to be positive about!
have a great weekend girls!
rest up and take it easy!
x jo
Hi Paula, great, I will have a Dec TTC buddy now that Sue's ditched me for October :-) I've never heard of Dunk Island but it makes me think of donuts and that sounds good! What job are you starting in October? For some reason I seem to think that you're in marketing too. Are you? I know Katie is. I am. I know what you mean about getting wrapped in wool and bubble wrap when next pregnant. I used to kind of wish I could sleep through it and just wake up to deliver a screaming baby but no, I would never miss those pregnancy months. Those kicks! I can't wait for December.
Sue, I hope that pink spotting was nothing. Stupid spotting. As if you haven't been through enough. I would think that since your body has taken the initiative to get pregnant on its own that it's more ready than ever to grow a baby. Hang in there and know that we're all willing that baby to stick, stick, stick!
Where are you Helen? About a week to your BFP now, I think. Sending positive vibes your way. Have you looked up Facebook yet? Join so I can see you! It's been really fun looking at everyone. So nice to know what most of you look like.
How are you feeling Rozzie? Is it this Monday that you're starting back at work? You'll be OK. Just that first encounter with people is awkward then it'll be over. Just worry about your own feelings and tell people whatever you feel up to.
And how's the other mama, Tildy? Still feeling zen? Hang in there... only a couple more weeks till you get to that magical 12wk scan!
And the super mama - Katie. How big are you now? Your tummy must be very big to give you sciatica. I am really happy that you are sounding so positive as you are my positivity! I thought you were due in Dec but you're due in Nov? Ooooh, you're going on maternity leave next week, aren't you? I'm jealous ;-)
Cindee, thanks for adding me on Facebook. Sorry about the M/S but happy that you're having it :-)
My dear Jo, I think of you a lot at night because you said that this is the hardest part of the day for you. I hope when everyone in your house is asleep, you know that you're not alone in your feelings. I am secretly thinking about getting packers when we move too, but David is convinced that he'll do everything himself - pack this house, clean it, move to next house, clean that, paint it, change carpets. I told him that sounds like a recipe for a divorce (j/k) but man will do what man thinks man can do.
and dec is not too far away...how exciting, so much to look forward too! you will be busy for great reasons!
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