Mrs Robbo - what a fantastic idea of a veggie garden. All the family can be involved and share this special garden. Enjoy your holiday. I am so jealous......
Lan - how exciting on buying a new home. I can totally understand delaying a couple of months as you get really busy moving, changing details etc etc...... congratulations.
Katiegirl - thank you again, feeling a little funny about it still. But have just put a "pregnancy ticker" on. At the scan I will be around 8 weeks (the heartbeat check!!). Though just went to the toilet and had a little pink blood when I wiped, so again I am scared....
I so want this baby, as I know you get the same outcome, but it would be excellent to achieve a baby out of the love of DH and I, not through IVF.
hey girls,
sue : while i get what you are saying, an IVF baby would still be out of love! Just because it comes from a different way does'nt make it any less special, its because of love you have put in the harder yards!!!! I just have the hugest admiration for anyone who has the strength to do that! Just wanted to say! (and i know you mean no offence and neither do i!) Hold tight tho and take care, the spotting may be nothing, but rest up, you deserve it!!!! One of my close friends spent 6ish years on IVF -she now has a gorgeous girl...and trust me after all her heartache and disappointment thru IVF - that little girl is so full of love,hopes and dreams i could'nt even tell you!!! will keep you in my thoughts ...
mrs robbo -have a fab time at dunk island! very jealous....hope it is sunny and you have a lovely time relaxing!
katie - have sat my angel in front of me all day!
hammi - congrats & good luck with the house buying...we did earlier this year and moved further out but it has been a nice move...eventho we were nervous about it... we have friends all over so it has'nt made a difference like we thought it would! thats why freeways are built!!! the packing tho was a nightmare - pay someone to do it! i am never moving again cos of the packing!!!! and dec is not too far away...how exciting, so much to look forward too! you will be busy for great reasons!
hgirs - after you said i sounded at peace i re-read my post!lol! The last 2 days yes, i spoke the friend i mentioned above (she lives in TAS) and i had'nt spoken to her for a month so i guess i was on a high still cos of that. Also i spoke to work and she said to just see how it goes on monday and was totally fine with my nerves etc so i guess that made me feel a little better about that too...
cindee - glad you can see the positives even with M/S! keep it going, hope you doc appoint went well and gave you even more to be positive about!
have a great weekend girls!
rest up and take it easy!
x jo
Hi Paula, great, I will have a Dec TTC buddy now that Sue's ditched me for October :-) I've never heard of Dunk Island but it makes me think of donuts and that sounds good! What job are you starting in October? For some reason I seem to think that you're in marketing too. Are you? I know Katie is. I am. I know what you mean about getting wrapped in wool and bubble wrap when next pregnant. I used to kind of wish I could sleep through it and just wake up to deliver a screaming baby but no, I would never miss those pregnancy months. Those kicks! I can't wait for December.
Sue, I hope that pink spotting was nothing. Stupid spotting. As if you haven't been through enough. I would think that since your body has taken the initiative to get pregnant on its own that it's more ready than ever to grow a baby. Hang in there and know that we're all willing that baby to stick, stick, stick!
Where are you Helen? About a week to your BFP now, I think. Sending positive vibes your way. Have you looked up Facebook yet? Join so I can see you! It's been really fun looking at everyone. So nice to know what most of you look like.
How are you feeling Rozzie? Is it this Monday that you're starting back at work? You'll be OK. Just that first encounter with people is awkward then it'll be over. Just worry about your own feelings and tell people whatever you feel up to.
And how's the other mama, Tildy? Still feeling zen? Hang in there... only a couple more weeks till you get to that magical 12wk scan!
And the super mama - Katie. How big are you now? Your tummy must be very big to give you sciatica. I am really happy that you are sounding so positive as you are my positivity! I thought you were due in Dec but you're due in Nov? Ooooh, you're going on maternity leave next week, aren't you? I'm jealous ;-)
Cindee, thanks for adding me on Facebook. Sorry about the M/S but happy that you're having it :-)
My dear Jo, I think of you a lot at night because you said that this is the hardest part of the day for you. I hope when everyone in your house is asleep, you know that you're not alone in your feelings. I am secretly thinking about getting packers when we move too, but David is convinced that he'll do everything himself - pack this house, clean it, move to next house, clean that, paint it, change carpets. I told him that sounds like a recipe for a divorce (j/k) but man will do what man thinks man can do.
Thanks for asking after me, Lan. I have my zen days and my not-so-zen days. Work is an exploding bomb at the moment, where if I add up all the stuff that different people think is included in my new assignment, then I'm working 150% of full time plus 5-6 different posts of "with the time you have left over." The only person who can actually answer what the hell I'm supposed to be doing is on vacation after today and he's pushing th "busy" button on his phone when I call him. I've decided that he can suit himself and that I will do the work that I've understood I should do and let the rest of it sit and rot until someone gives me a clear answer (and one that does NOT involve me being two people).
But the thing is, this kind of stress making my baby-panic so much more intense. I have a very strong habit of getting stressed over EVERYTHING when one thing seems to be going very wrong. And this one is even worse, because the stress about my job can be classed as "uncertainty about the future," and as soon as we enter that chamber, the waves of uncertainty over the baby come crashing in. I was in Stockholm with work the Wednesday and Thursday (and will be spending most of the next 7 weeks there if these people get their way!). Both days I wore a pad all day even though I'm not bleeding, because what if I started, up there in Stockholm without a change of jeans? I keep feeling little tiny pains, like being stuck with a pin or like the baby is pinching me from the inside, and I get scared. I ran to the bathroom once an hour feeling convinced that I was dripping blood, but not a single drop since the last incident last Friday. And then I think... How can they expect me to spend those three weeks in October in Stockholm when that'll be weeks 15-17 of my pregnancy, right when I'm going to be at my most panicky since that's when I lost Beiron? What happens if I miscarry up there, while DH is down here? What happens if I miscarry in Spain? Should I really book that advanced C++ course in November? On the train ride home I became so restless the closer we got to Link?ping that I'm suprised I didn't shout out "let me off this tin can!" The people sitting around me must have thougt I had lost it. I feel on the verge of tears all the time, and yet my discussion with one of the bosses about the fuzziness regarding my duties was really quite calm and sensible. He just doesn't know that inside I'm going "HOW CAN I STILL ONLY BE 9 WEEKS PREGNANT!"
So... no. It's not a very zen week for me.
Sorry. Venting was key. I can't stand the thought that I might lose this bubs, but it's all I can think about; more and more frequently the images surrounding how Beiron came out are just taking up all my mind space.
BTW, Sue... I think it's really wonderful. It's a lovely surprise that you were able to get pregnant on your own. I know that we would all love any baby that was given to us, but it's always nice to have these little bonus bits.
Oh Tildy, we are all feeling the stress with you. Just try and hang in there. Everything we can possibly cross is crossed and I think everything you are feeling is completely normal. Is there any way you can voice your concerns at work. Imagine if all these people were putting this much pressure or negative energy on your baby. You would stand up to them in an instant to protect him/her I am sure. When they are giving you extra work etc, maybe ask yourself what you need to do at that time for bubs and not yourself. I know that is a lot easier said than done and I am the queen of taking on much more than I can handle but give it a try. I have been using the same technique even though I'm not PG and have been asking 'is this going to help me create the perfect environment for my bub to grow in'. If the answer is no then I have found myself regularly making decisions different to what I would have normally. Even my friends have commented. Mind you I wouldn't say I always make a better decision, but even if it is sometimes, it surely has to be of some benefit.
To be honest, the amount of stress you are under is unlikely to affect bubs health but at least in your own mind you'll have less to worry about and can focus on coping with the PG stress which is more than enough for anyone in your situation to have to deal with without all the extra crap.
Maybe next time you feel on the verge of tears at work just let it go. Eventually everyone will just think of you as the crazy hormonal PG woman and will be too scared to approach you to do extra work!!
BTW glad to hear your spotting has stopped. Lets hope it is gone for good and you can try and relax about it a little. If not, we're always happy to hear someone venting... it makes the rest of us feel like all our irrational thoughts are normal after all!!
Hi everyone
I don't know why but my emails weren't telling me there were new posts!! So Lan I am still here, and only on day 11 so not ready for testing yet!! But I feel quite calm about September so lets hope that is a good sign.
I too have been wanting to do a new garden for ages, but when Cooper died it become almost urgent, it was as if I needed to do it for him. I was home only days when I was found digging up our veggie patch and told promptly to 'get inside and rest!', there is something very therapeutic about digging in the earth. I am very happy today to say that I have finally got that new garden set out and am in the process of digging out all the old lawn, it is almost as though I have been possessed as I just don't want to leave it!! Luckily I have my MIL & FIL here at the moment to help out with DS. So Mrs Robbo I totally understand the garden thing, and by the way Ethan seems like such an wise old soul, he Charlie is truly blessed to have a big brother like him.
Dellydoo - Welcome to our little corner of the world, I wish I didn't have to say that, but you will find wonderful support here.
Lan - Good on you for looking after yourself, moving can be such a stressful thing, we talk about it constantly, but until we have our next baby safely home I think we will stay here as I feel safer being close to our hospital and wonderful GP.
Katie - I hope you are looking after yourself those last 8 weeks are going to fly by!
Sue - Very brave putting your ticker up, I am so proud!! Jumping the gun and all! I hope that one little spot has gone away and never comes back, I really wish there was a magical way we could check in on our babies and see what was going on in there.
Jo - You keep amazing me with your love and concern for others, just know we all love you back!
Tildy - I wish you could just tell them all to go to hell! You don't need anymore stress, try and do whatever you can to help ease it, easier said then done I know.
Cindee - How are you going?
Have to fly my back is killing me sitting here, too much digging! Sorry if I've missed anyone.
Helen, when you say that you're going to dig up a lawn, do you mean a really big patch of grass. What are you doing??? Rest up, you're potentially brewing a baby in there!
Tildy, I've felt that way at work too and I've discovered that the only person with your true interest at heart is yourself. Last time I thought I was just being a hypochondriac and should just get on with the job but next time I'm going to stand up for myself and tell people if my workload is too much or I don't want to travel etc. Don't let work compromise your peace of mind! You shouldn't be away from DH around the 17wk mark, you'll be a nervous wreck, no matter how zen you've been!
Better start working since it's 9.30am. I hate Monday mornings.
and dec is not too far away...how exciting, so much to look forward too! you will be busy for great reasons!
Venting was key. I can't stand the thought that I might lose this bubs, but it's all I can think about; more and more frequently the images surrounding how Beiron came out are just taking up all my mind space.
It's a lovely surprise that you were able to get pregnant on your own. I know that we would all love any baby that was given to us, but it's always nice to have these little bonus bits. 
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