Lan, me and DH are thinking Dec for ttc as well, maybe we can be ttc buddies! I feel like i've had the flu forever and have been so busy lately. Then with starting a new job in Oct we thought a few months break would be good and that Dec would be better timing. How exciting for you and DH to be moving into a new house. It can be stressful though so probably a good idea for you guys to wait a few months and get settled. The last thing you'll need once you get your long awaited BFP is extra stress. I think I will be sitting on the couch wrapped in cotton wool and an outer layer of bubble wrap just for safe measure!! When you do ttc in Dec and you are in your new place it will feel like such a lovely fresh start and you can fill your new place with lots of positive baby vibes!

On another note, I've been trying to think of way to honor Charlie and have decided to grow a veggie garden. We've recently moved to the Gold Coast so are just renting atm but have been researching and you can apparently grow gardens in planter boxes so you can take them with you when you leave. We had wanted to plant a tree but as this isn't our place we would hate to leave it behind. I did plant a tree at a special rememberance place in Byron Bay just after Charlie died but I thought a veggie garden would be something we could tend to regularly and it would kind of be like looking after a baby. I also thought it would be good therapy for those times when you just want to be near your angel baby and don't know how to deal with the sadness of them not being here.

I told DS that we were going to grow a garden filled with all his favorite veggies and without any prompting he said 'I know Mummy, we can get a sign which says Charlie's Garden', he then rang up his Poppy in Victoria who is coming to visit in a few weeks and asked him if he could make the sign for us. So now I'm really excited because it is something everyone can help to build and will give us all a way to be with our little girl.

I should mention though that I have absolutely no gardening skills at all so am planning on taking a few 'how to' books away to Dunk Island to give myself a crash course!!! Surely with so many people caring for it, the garden will have a good chance of surviving even if I am a totally incompetent black thumb!

Anyway, I hope you are all having a good day today. I am so glad I found you girls and am able to share in all your journeys. You are all truly remarkable and give me so much hope and inspiration that I don't know how I would survive otherwise.

xox