Powelly - I have been awol, and I am so saddened to return and hear your sad news. I agree with Chez and Gi. One of my friends in another thread actually had the testing done and she had NKC ( natural killer cells) and she had to really push to get the testing done. She took some meds and is now utd - about 19 weeks now from memory. Glad the physical burden have been less this time around, but the emotional burden is much heavier. TMC worked wonders for me too.

I've left my ticker on, not to upset you, but rather to announce our news. As happy as I am for her safe arrival in the end ( I developed preeclampsia and HELLP synrome and had an emergency caesarean), our little Hannah bear is at times a reminder of all the missed opporunities that we will never have with Amelia, Nicholas, Sophie or our wee little sprite. Then I feel guilty to be so blessed, and to feel sad for lost chances. So, even those I am so so very blessed, the burdens of our losses are never too far away for me. I wonder if that will be less in time? It's not all the time, I do adore Hannah bear in her own right... it's jsut sometimes I am struck by what could have been.

Anyway, I had better have a rest. Take care.

So Powelly my dear, go gently on yourself....