Lemonade, I am so sorry for your loss. It will take some time to recover emotionally so try and rush it. Physically.. could you have some retained tissue? That would cause the hcg to not go down. So sad you had to join our group but you are very welcome. (((hugs)))
Friday evening, long week, tired crabby DH and even tireder and crabbier DS5 and 1. Bath and bed for all.
Hi girls, selfish post sorry.
I am back and not going so well today. I am exhausted and DH has gone back to work after wed/thurs weekend of heartache. I am really tired, teary and sad. Feel lonely and angry. God how do we feel so much at once. I will be back later to reply to others and fill you in on what we did for DD's anniversary. I hate that it has come and gone.
Love and thanks to all for your warm wishes. xoxo
Gigi - huge hugs to you, I'm not really sure what else to say, so I'll just say that I have been thinking of you and I hope you start to feel a bit stronger over the next few days.
angelic - glad to hear a new cycle has kicked off. hope the OPK's are useful for you.
Lemondade - I'm really glad to see you on this thread, I was wondering how things were going for you. I know what you mean about AF, for me it felt like the first step to recovering a bit. I hope the hcg levels aren't anything problematic, keep us posted.
dory - i'm glad you are feeling a bit more positive today. I hope you have a peaceful and stress free weekend.
crumpet - how did the interview go?? I'm sure you impressed them. The metallic mouth sounds promising!!! I'm crossing everything!!
Tenibear - I hope your balloon release was helpful and meaningful for you and Scott.
blessed - I'm so sorry about the separation. I hope you guys can work something out without too much more heartache
AFM - I am failing miserably at not obscessing about AF coming. I can't stop thinking about it! I would so desperately love to not see her for another 9 months, sigh, will just have to be patient and remind myself that it is likely way too soon for a BFP.
Hello everyone - still lurking here. I just lost a massive post and cannot retype as heading out. Just wanted to let Tenibear know I am thinking of you today sweetie. I am glad that you and Scott can spend some time with Ianto today.
Will have to repost on the weekend! Thinking of you all though.
Lemonade - welcome to this thread. I am sad to hear of your loss and understand your frustration with your physical recovery. I had RPOC so had to have a D&C about 4 weeks after the birth of our son - I don't recall the HCG level exactly (I think about 46 or so) but it was enough along with a scan to get my GP to refer me to an ob for the D&C. She was particularly worried about the risk of infection with RPOC. I hope your ob can work out what is happening for you at your next appointment.
Blessed - so sorry to hear about your separation. I wish you happiness for the future, whatever happens with your DH. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are.
Gigi1 - :hugs: hun I have been thinking about you all week. I hope you're doing ok.
Dory - sometimes I find the sadness in here a little hard to deal with as well which is why I only visit weekly at times. Often I am feeling good and then I just read something that resonates with me and I am in tears (like today). I hope you are looking after yourself and your precious bundle.
Crumpet - I haven't had the metallic taste (not associated with a BFP anyway). Sending lots of babydust your way!
CharlieB - still AF for me and trying not to over analyse symptoms. I have been tired most of the week. Have had the occasional twinge in the ovary region but so far no AF - here's hoping she stays away for the next 8 months for both of us!
TeniB - I hope the ballon release went well. Glad that Scott was able to change shifts as well. Thinking of you hun
Angelic - hi. I was wondering how you were going. Glad that AF has arrived but not sure about the painful part. I hope you have a relaxing weekend - it sounds like you need it!
Hi to SusieQ, samcougar, aries, cmgelles and everyone else!
AFM, looking forward to a relaxing weekend. It is cold and rainy here so a perfect couch potato day which is what DH and I both need. I am not feeling confident about this cycle. No particular reason - that's just how I am feeling. I am supposed to have CD1 b/ts on Monday which is when I am due but all of the clinics are closed in the ACT because of the public holiday. My GP was quite specific that she wanted AM CD1 tests not CD2 so I am not sure what I will do if AF arrives Sunday night or early Monday morning. Do I not do it and wait another cycle? It's just that my FS appointment is in 3 weeks and I wanted some test results to take to her. Oh well, it is what it is I guess.
Gigi big hugs hun. It does get easier as years go past but you never forget.
Chez it depends what you count as cd1. Sometimes cd1 can just be heavy spotting so is it cd 1 or spotting.... and others say if it starts after 6pm then count the next day as day 1.( I know a couple of women who do that for religious reasons, if AF starts after sundown then it is the next day)
I know I can spot for days before AF really starts so to me it is the day I have to wear a pad and not a panty liner.
Thanks girls,
I will make my way back in here bit by bit. I am still a bit tired today.
Went to where we spent our honeymoon for DD's anniversary. We took butterflies with us and released them with friends up there and their kids. They were also kind enough to make her a birthday cake and light candles, we sang happy birthday...well we got through most of it. We light a fire back at our cottage and read her books, looked through her photos and took many more. Bought her a tree to plant in my mum and dad's garden. Read my journal from when I was pregnant with her. God it took us back and made us really take note again how much we wanted her. Not that we needed reminding but it was nice to go back.
Friend had her baby this morning, little girl, home birth and all are well. xoxo Two down and two more to go..both SIL- One due now, and the other in a month.
xoxoxo
thanks so much for your warm welcome - I really appreciate it.
I hope you're all having a good weekend. DH and I are in the hunter
valley so trying to just relax and focus on good things... And lots of good food.
Dory - thanks for the kind words - they felt like a comforting hug.
Charlie - I just wanted to let you know how much you helped when you replied
to my post in the early days. I felt so alone and sad and your post made
me feel so much more 'normal'. All your words and experiences seemed
to mirror how I was feeling and going through. I guess being only one
month apart in our loss puts us in a similar spot. I am sending you lots of positive BFP vibes. Hopefully I'll follow soon too. Xxxx
angelic- really appreciate the welcome
Gigi - what a tough time you've had recently but it seems you've marked the occassion in such a beautiful way. I would love to know how you managed with your friends birth and your SILs pregnancy. My SIL and really good friend are due on the same day I was. My sister is also 12 weeks now. I am finding it reaaly difficult especially seeing the growing stomach.
Chez- thx for the welcome. I hope you are relaxing and enjoying the rain.
The good news is that I thought I would do a preg test and OPK this morning and both were distinctly negative. So hopefully means my hcg is dropping and my body is getting ready for next round of o'ing.
Question- I would love to know what your experience with your obs was. Ours is supposed to be highly regarded in syd but she was there just after the birth and I haven't heard from her since and that was almost 7 weeks ago. No follow up call. Even now after my stressful week with my elevated hcg and I went for an u/s and blood tests and I asked the receptionist if the dr could call me but she never did. The receptionist always called withthe results. She's obviously very busy with other patients but my next pregnancy will probably have quite a bit of anxiety attached and I don't know how understanding she'll be if I can't even speak to her now. Do you think I'm expecting too much?
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I know what you mean about AF, for me it felt like the first step to recovering a bit. I hope the hcg levels aren't anything problematic, keep us posted.
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