Hi girls

just a quick one I'll post personals later, back to school routine etc.

Tess Im so sorry for you angel Thomas having to go, I hope we can make this time a little easier for you, the girls are wonderful with support and advice. Like always I wish you didnt have to be here like the rest of us, but I hope you find peace, comfort and a smile from these wonderful women.

Me, Im not sure if I should be saying this and im sorry if I offend anyone but Im having a bummer of the last day and today, my baby went back to school yesterday. I didnt cry the day he started kindy but hay he starts primary school and I lost it (what the!) I went to the gym worked out hard came home and........nothing I was all alone. Today I should have been 20weeks......I think I thought that when he went back to school I would have something to look forward to but theres just nothing except tears, why is it still so hard? Life s*%$s sometimes. I never thought that I would be in place in my life I wanted three or four babies and look where im at after seven years I havejust one and 13 angel babies, and dont get me wrong one very precious monkey that Im so thankful for each and every day but its just.......well life is just strange.

Im sorry for going on and maybe sounding ungreatful but I need to just get it out so when I turn up in the playground this morning I dont start again!!! And to top it off I said I would help out with tears and tissues morning tea for all the mums who babies start kindy........go figure.

I hope you are all having a much better day then me and you can have a good old laugh thinking about the dumb mother standing there severing tea with tears!!!! I'll pop back later and catch up with you wonderful souls. xxxxx