Hey guys,

Sorry about my freak out before. I just started off writing my post and the further I got into it the more upset I got and then I started getting angry at life - you know how it is. Thank you Clare and Spring for your messages, it does help to know you guys are there and that's pretty much why I vent in here cause I know you understand. I still feel a big peeved at all this s*** and just want to stop thinking about it, even if just for a minute. But Lynn, you made me feel a lot better so thank you I really don't know what I would do without you all

Spring - I am so sorry you have had such a crap day. I agree with Clare that it may be from DTD, it happened to me with Nicholas a couple of times throughout the pregnancy but I didn't stress too much at that time because I was naive back then. I wonder if it is making you a little more stressed because it was around this time you lost Pumpkin? I really do believe everything will be ok, but I agree that you should definitely try to get an earlier appointment. Simply to put your mind at ease. I really hope you do ok over the next couple of weeks with DH away, you that if you need someone to talk to or a shoulder (or telephone) to cry on I am there for you

Clare - I am sure everything will be fine on Thursday, but I will be thinking of you all the same and you will definitely have to pop in and let us know how you get on. Same goes for your pap results. Happy birthday for tomorrow, I hope you have a lovely day and get really spoilt. How nice to be just the family again - we all love our parents but lets face it, we moved out of home for a reason, lol. Does your mum know about you being pregnant as yet?

Bailey - Thinking of you and Asha today. Hope you are well :hugs:

Thanks again,

Mel