Hey everyone,

It has been really quiet around here huh!

Spring - I am so sorry you received Harrison's certificate. They don't provide them in Melbourne (instead we get "stillborn" written on their birth certificate) so I can only imagine how awful it was. So confronting and heartbreaking, and the absolute worst way to start off DH's weekend home... I have 100% confidence that you will never have to receive another one of those again. Thinking of you both

Clare - Good luck for your scan on Thursday, let us know how you get on.

Bailey - Im glad going back to work wasn't as bad as you thought, the hardest bit is that first day not knowing what to expect. As hard as it is, I think it is great that you are starting to be able to talk about Asha and I really hope it is helping you

Not much happening on my end, kids are being sensational this weekend - especially the youngest :eek:, so I don't have too much to complain about. Pretty confident AF will be visiting on Monday - I did HPT on Thursday with FMU and got BFN. So pretty much considering it was only 5 days before AF due I would expect at least a shadow of some sort but there absolutely nothing. Also, I am starting to get the usual PM symptoms. But, I am going to do another test tomorrow morning and if - let's not fool myself - when I get a BFN again I will know for sure I am not pg this month DH says I should hold out for Monday to see if AF arrives but Monday is exactly 5 months since Nicholas was born and I worry it is going to be tough, and considering I will be at work I don't need a nasty little surprise all on the same day because I will fall apart. But I will live, and I will go and have the hysterogram on the 13th Feb and then try again next month

On a different note, I went with my sister yesterday to help her out with some stuff for my nephews 3rd birthday party tomorrow - well we took him to Red Rooster for lunch and he was telling all about what he was going to have at his party. It is a Wiggles theme and he told me he was going to have Wiggles music and I asked "are you gonna dance at your party" and he said yes, and I then asked "can I dance with you at your party" and he got this mortified look on his face and said "you will embarrass me", lmao. I was totally devastated!

Anyway, on that very depressing note... I hope everyone else is well.

Mel