Guys Max is beautiful! I picked up the photo's just after lunch and opened them straight away. They have even put a little nappy on him for the photos and he is laying on his blanket that we bought him the day he was born. I don't think they are photo's I will share with people, they may shock some as obviously he was very early, but I have some closure now.

Now in my mind and heart, Max is my little boy, he has been now for nearly 4 months, I have grieved for my son, buried him and thought about him every day, but we got confirmation today, that the amnio doctor stuffed up and Max is actually a girl! I haven't told my DP yet, but I dont really have any choice, they wrapped Max in a pink blanket for the photos.

I automatically thought, Oh my god, what if the amnio doctor stuffed up my results as well, what if Max was perfect! But I know from the ultrasound and in my gut that he was unwell.

I was prepared for this, I am not angry. We had a suspicion a while ago they had stuffed up but decided to dismiss it as a typo. Just really emotional now, I really am not prepared to say goodbye to my son and then grieve losing my daughter.

Lynn - I am thinking of you today. Big hugs. xxx