Today has been a day of mixed emotions.

My mum came over and finished making some curtains for Cooper's room. They look beautiful and finish the room off. We were supposed to do this before he was born, but he came a little early and we hadn't quite got them finished. They are finished now and the room looks perfect. I just wish that Cooper was here to see his room complete.

I received the call from the crematorium to say that Cooper's plaques have arrived. I wasn't prepared for the phone call as they weren't supposed to be ready yet. I'm just not ready to let him go again. I like to have him at home, it makes me feel like he is here. DH said that he can stay here until I am ready to take him to his new home. I just don't know if I will ever be ready. The crematorium said that they will put the plaques in place and we can take him there whenever we are ready. I just don't want to say goodbye again........................