Hey Gals, I hope everyone is well.

Spring - You are so right about how men grieve diferently. I know that my DP is still having a hard time but you would really never know it because he hides it well and sometimes when I want to talk about it with him, he won't and that upsets me more. But then and different times I will catch him having a look at the urn or just quietly staring off into space and I know he thinking about her. I know he is feeling the same as me, but I think he hides it for me iykwim. He's trying to be the tough one. I just sat here and bawled when I read in your post how your DH says good morning to Harrison, it's so sweet. Have you been to Taronga Zoo yet? You will love it! Good luck with your scan tommorrow and try to get a pic to show us all on sunday.

Lynn - It's so hard having to go through everything again when you see someone you haven't seen since isn't it? I sometimes feel like a broken record, or like I'm on auto-pilot and go into a script telling my story. I am so glad you were ok after spending the day with your friends and the kids, it must have been hard. I hope you are feeling ok.

Dream - Don't gove up on a BFP just yet, when is AF due?? for you!!

Well, I haven't been on much this last week. I have just had such a huge 10 days or so, so I was feeling a little over-whelmed. I had to see the geneticist, started back at work, went to a friends wedding where I had to see many people that I hadn't seen since losing Asha and had my son's party yesterday. There has been so much going on I just realised that life is still going on around me, but I sometimes feel like I am standing still iykwim?? Does anyone else feel that sometimes? Well, a new start this week, and my first week of ttc, so that has given me something to look forward too. I hope you are all well.