Oh Deb thank you so much, and you are always so right. I have spoken to Dh last night for some time and as he said to me you have been "wrong one other time" so lets wait till the blood test!!! I hate it when they do that.....but he is right so I will have blood test friday now as tomorrow on top of everything else my dad has cancer and we are off to the specialist. DH and I have made a decision that if the witch sings then I will have a break for six months or til Jul/Aug and have a go then as I said I seem to fall around this time. This will give me time to "put the spare back on the car" and feel a little normal for a while. Mean while arrange surrogacy stuff, there is alot to do.

You make me laugh and thank you for that, I wish I could be more positive for everyone at the moment but im sure I will be back to old nat soon.

To all you wonderful women, thank you for all your positive support, I hope on friday I can post how wrong I have been... that will make my day!

Clare Im so glad the bleeding has stopped and whats with the grape picking? no wonder you have bleeding....get yourself on that lounge and relax!!!!! I hope you got some good grapes anyway!

Mel After your post I do have one question with regards to the Ex......have you been watching desperate housewives? If not, you need to it sounds just like your situation.

Tess I will be thinking of you on the 23rd, I hope you find what you need. And the weight....I know how you feel, just be kind to yourself dont be to hard to soon. I hope your day is going ok.

Lynn You are so normal as Deb said to me it takes time to fall and I know I know we dont want to wait but if it means a healthy baby then....I am thinking of you and send big vibes for that big O soon.

Spring Im going to have a look over the fence! Im glad your still posting here as well

Well Happy Valentines Day to you all I know its a bit corny but a bit of love is always a good thing. Hope you have all had a good day, talk soon xxx