Merry Christmas one and all. I hope you all had a nice time with your family and friends. Our angel babies would have been proud of how well we are all coping through this hard time. I was thinking the other day, I know my boy would have wanted me to be happy, so instead of letting myself get too sad, I try to enjoy the day in honour of him. In saying that, it's been almost 4 years since we lost him and the first Christmas was dreadful.

Wishing you all the best sticky vibes for 2011. May the BFP's be plentiful. I had a dating scan the week of Christmas and after a brief freak out (couldn't find a HB with the abdominal scan) they did a transvaginal and there it was. Tiny and beating. It feels real now and I'm cautiously letting myself get a tiny bit happy/excited about it.

Big hugs to you all!!!