tashybabe - you speak words we know all too well... You will never replace little Leo, he is with you forever. But I too know the longing for holding a earthside bubba.

All the rest of you lovely ladies - I hope you coped well during christmas... My ticker is actually wrong as I am only 3dpo. Had massive ovulation pains Christmas eve later in the afternoon. So I am guessing it was really a christmas egg. I just hope we have caught it. Something like that would replenish my faith in Christmas.

Christmas, we got through. Not many glitches, shared a few tears and talked about what he might have been up to on this day as he wouldve been 10 months old. We also got a suprising email, Hubby works alongside a certian AFL football club, and we recieved a email from their president expressing his sympathy and offering not only a memership for our 8 year old but a seasons worth of suprises including running out with the team on one of the mcg games... My son no less is over the moon. But is it wrong of me to sit here and think, everyone around him can make him happy except me... He was waiting so long for his baby brother, and that was ripped from him.