Hi girls,

Kat - Im sorry you havent been feeling the best, and I really hope the infection clears up. You know I believe in "the plan" though so

Klee - How you feeling? Still a bit blah? How long is your Mum gone for?

Lynn - Thanks for chat, really helped

Jo - Sorry about BFN, but dont give up til the witch sings

CeCe - I like your way of thinking about Eli, and only failing him if you dont get through this. I so wish I could think that way, its much more positive. Maybe your chart is an omen - a good one!

SJ - Dont feel that you dont belong, you are so welcome here and I dont think anyone would want you to leave us. Everyone has different experiences, but it doesnt make any one person more or less important than another iykwim.

Ellie - How you feeling? Everything looking hopeful for a cycle before Xmas?

Hi to everyone else, I apologise if I have missed anyone - I should know better than to disappear for a few days, its too hard to catch up.

Sorry I havent been around, I have been really busy but also maybe not in the most positive frame of mind and have been wallowing a little, but...

...I am extremely positive at the moment - we have actually had a week where a few things seem to be working out. I got some work with a surgeon in the place I worked back in March, 1 day a week and will be working at home 4 days a week (just perfect ). We finally managed to trade in our car we have been trying to get rid of for a year and bought a new one - we picked it up yesterday afternoon and we love it. Its a 2005 VZ Commodore station wagon, really good condition, and its getting a 3rd row put in in a couple of weeks which means when we have a baby we dont have to stress about how we will transport them all YAY!

But the best bit is I had an app at Melb IVF yesterday and they said everything looks perfect, although the follicles need to grow just a little more so I have a couple more days of FSH injections but I can handle that, and they have schedule an egg pick-up for next Wednesday and then embryo transfer for Friday Then I will have the hardest TWW in my entire life! But if I get a bfp out it, every single thing we have gone through will be worth every second of it.

Anyway, I have gone on enough now so I will shut up