Spring - Have a nice time in Brissy, pity we missed each other by a couple of days. But oh well thems the breaks.
Deb - I cannot believe I was in your area and didnt catch up I am so disappointed, how great would that have been? We were in Maleny on Monday and OMG the fog was absolutely amazing, we could barely see more than 10m in front of us and we couldnt see the street signs until we were right on them. We ended up stopping at this really nice restaurant for a coffee, it was just near the turn off to the cheese factor which took us like an hour to find LOL. My friend and I have said we want to go back at some stage, we especially want to go to Eumundi markets, so next time I will definitely keep you in mind.
Lynn - I am so sorry you are feeling so flat today I understand how easily those positive thoughts can turn negative, but please dont give up hope yet. As you know I had not one symptom except for a missed period when I was pg with Nicholas. What is it with AF being due on our boys 6 month birthdays - remember mine came on that day as well. I remember how hard it was and I so hope you dont have to go through that, I am keeping all digits cross for great results on Monday. I know it is hard, but try to remain positive - you have more than good chances. And the question about how much can one person take... I ask myself that all the time, and each month that goes by feels like the load is heavier to carry but there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel eventually
Bailey - Gotta love GI Joe LMAO! Will reply to your email in a min.
Klee - I am sorry you are having a rough day, I hope your headache goes really soon. I saw Maria's post, hopefully she will come in and say hi to everyone. I am so glad she found BB.
Tess - Congrats on great results.
Well I have lost track of where I am at now so I will just say a big hi to everyone else and I hope you are all doing great.
I started my next temp assignment today and I absolutely HATED it It is in a public hospital and everyone there is so slack, they all just sat around talking ALL day and I worked my little (or big LOL) butt off! I was so not happy, and they were not prepared at all for a temp. My printer wasnt working and I had to get it working myself cause noone had any idea what they were doing. They tried to help me, but hindered me more than anything. One of the ladies tried to tell me that I shouldnt started the names of medications with a capital letter - WTF??? Which school did they go to??? And the worst bit is that one of the ladies daughter is booked in for a caesar in a couple of weeks and I heard nothing but her going on and on and on and on about this damn baby all day! Her daughter had an appointment with the anaesthetist and I swear you would think she was having open heart surgery the way she was carrying on - ringing her every 5 mins to check if she was going ok. And she said that in the time she is on leave (which I am covering her for) she is going to bring the baby in to meet everyone! OMG what have I done in this life to keep being put through this crap? The only good thing is that she was so wrapped up in herself she didnt ask if I had any children - probably a good thing for her because I had decided that if she did I was going to tell her the truth, and maybe then I wouldnt have to listen to it. Anyway, the agency is going to try to get someone to replace me cause I just cant be in a place where it is like that.
Anyway, I guess it didnt help that I started my day with a BFN I guess I can write this month off considering I am due for AF Saturday. I have no symptoms and I am starting to feel those "bowel" symptoms you get just prior to AF (I think Klee may have eluded to them earlier), life sucks! This will be 8 months that we have been TTC now - what more can we do? Why is it so hard to fall? I am becoming increasingly frustrated and angry about life and I am sick of being unhappy all the time!
On that cheery note I guess I will go now.
Take care everyone,
Mel
Last edited by Mel1977; May 24th, 2007 at 09:41 PM.
Mel honey - so sorry about your work placement and i hope you get transferred out of there soon. ON the other hand if they do ask about you and your baby then go ahead and tell them - give them a shock and a wake up call. The world needs to hear it. Your time will come honey - you WILL have another baby before you know it. I have every confidence in it.
One of the fathers at daycare said sorry to me the other day for what happened and he said "i don't know what to say" - so i went for it and i told him what he can say and that it is better to say something than nothing...hooray - 1 down, millions to go ! Looking forward to reading the poem - will check it out shortly
JLK - glad to hear that you have been given the all clear to TTC again - great news. I don't think there is ever a good time to do something when a b'day or anniversary comes up when something is happening (AF, testing, BFP/N's etc). Thinking of you.
Bailey - how you doing ? any MS yet ???
Klee - that was very sweet about the flowers that you got - a very pleasant suprise. Just wish there were more people out there like that.
Lynn - sorry you are feeling down - you too will get your BFP very soon - just hang in there ok - otherwise i am going to slap you ( i know not appropriate) - you and Mel will have another baby very soon - we are all here for you both and are sending loads of babydust your way - just take it in....
Spring - have a nice time away and you are sooo luck you are out of NSW just now !! Kidding - have a wonderful time.
Tess - yes just posted in the other thread - glad to hear you finally got your results. Looking forward to catching up one day )we will get a few of us together to come on down)
AustraJoey - if you can attend a Sids & Kids meeting i would highly recommend it. Whilst it can be sad sitting around a room telling your story, i have found it to be very helpful. We DO laugh at other things - thank god for the sense of humour. We all have the same understanding and at least you get that face to face with a group of people.
MIL and DD are still asleep - what is going on? I have been awake since 5.00am with hunger pains - bloody hell !!!!
Mel: hun, you just seem to be confronted with self obsessed pregnant women at each job you go to. That must be so hard. I can't imagine the way you must have felt inside hearing that lady go on about her c-section. Good on you for maintaining composure. That was a very strong thing to do.
About the BFN, I know it isn't much comfort but with Harry I didn't get a BFP until a week after AF was due so don't give up yet. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you after 8 months, it is so unfair, there is no reason why this is happening to you. All I can do is send you a big warm and let you know that you are doing everything you can. Don't forget, if AF does show up, you have a plan for this month so just keep focused on that babe. I hope you are feeling a bit better today. I really really just want to reach out to you and give you a cuddle. Take care of yourself honey, we are all here for you.
Lynn: I won't lie to you, 6 months is a shocker. Just yet another of those damn milestones. I found that the day before was harder, I guess I got so worked up about it the day before that I got some of the sorrow out of my system. I hope that you don't get AF on Cooper's 6 month birthday, infact I hope you don't get AF for at least the next 8 months. Don't feel too down about the lack of symptoms, you have so many drugs in your system at the moment that they are probably masking any subtle symptoms that may be there anyway. I know that this TWW has been the longest ever but you are getting there babe and before you know it, it will be over and I have everything crossed that at the end of this TWW you will be met by a BFP.
Deb: I posted to you in the Pregnancy thread but I just wanted to say that you will do wonderfully today babe. Only 2 hours to go until you see darling little Col with that strong heartbeat. Be easy on yourself, this is a tough road and you are doing amazingly.
Bailey: Oh now now, there are still 2 games left so I am sure we will let you win one so that you don't feel too bad (He He). How are you going babe? Is it sinking in? I don't know much about the process at your hospital, but at the Westmead, they consider you high risk purely because you have had a stillborn baby before. Even if this pregnancy is textbook. It is good in a way because you get extra attention after the birth, counselling, Lactation consultants who get to know you, private tours of the ward, so check out with your hossy if they do the same type of thing. Even though I am going as a private paitent, those services are provided by the public hossy.
Tess: whoo hoo on those awesome results. That is just wonderful news. I am so happy for you at the moment.
Klee: what a wonderful workmate you have. Perhaps a nice idea would be to write a little thank you card to her from you and Phoebe. Perhaps now she will realise that she can talk to you about your daughter and that it is ok to be sad about her. Sending you vibes this month.
JLK: Great to hear that you will shortly be on the TTC wagon. I also understand not wanting a baby to be born around Storm's due date. That is going to be a tough time so I think you are doing what is right for you.
AustraJoey: I haven't been to a S&K meeting but from what the other ladies tell me it is like BB in person. Just people telling their story, getting support and realising they aren't alone. I think it sounds like a really good idea so perhaps you should look further into it.
well I really hope I haven't missed anyone. If I have sending huge your way.
I am at my sister's house, I had a really good sleep which was nice. About to head off to catch up with friends. I'll pop in when I can. Posted about Lil Spring in the pregnancy thread.
Take care my sweets and here is an extra sprinkle of for all of you.
Lv Spring
Ps. Deb: I tried to go back and read the last few posts in the closed thread and it wouldn't let me, Not sure if this is usual. Of course don't worry about it today, I just though I'd let you know.
Tommysmum: I must have just missed you. If you are hungry girl, get eating. The beauty of everyone being asleep is that you can have first breakfast now, and then second breakfast when they wake up
Hi Bailey - I think my EDD will be 26 january 2008. Based on my LMP - also my HcG levels are in the range for this to be right too. My doctor has sent a referral to the FMU so that they can get me seen earlier rather than later - i guess as I went into preterm they want to stop it happening again so soon?? I don't really know what will happen but just enjoying the stress free time at the moment.
mel - I am sorry things were so bad at work today, I understand completely I am currently on secondment working for a lady on maternity leave - we have a 4wk overlap at the end of her pregnancy and it was so hard walking around with her with everyone talking about it all the time, patting her tummy etc. I was one week ahead of her in my pregnancy. It was a very hard time. I think if you can get out of there that would be a good thing for your sanity if nothing else. I have my fingers crossed that AF stays away for you honey - I am sorry it takes so long when TTC. Life just sucks sometimes.
Deb - I have been thinking about you all day. I hope everything went well. Come and let us know how you went. I have been stalking BB all afternoon waiting for you to post!
I was watching the Catch Up Show on TV for the first time today(never watch day time TV LOL) and they had an author (Leslie Cannold)talk about her book re fertility/choices/childlessness. Lisa Oldfield burst into tears and got very upset and revealed she's ttc and has had "only m/c after m/c"- 3 in total. I started crying too as she described how hard talking about it to others who keep pressuring her to have a baby not knowing her circumstances.
Jo
Last edited by AustraJoey; May 25th, 2007 at 07:00 PM.
Hi Girls,
Wow quieter in here today than it was yesterday.
Tommysmum - How are you coping with MIL? Only one more sleep til she goes home
Spring - I am still not speaking to you. Just joking, I know 2 more games but if we can stuff up that bad, I don't hold out much hope. Oh well. Slowly starting to sink in but so is the fear. I am going out to buy a journal so I can start purging in it and start to also write some positive things down. I have to stop doing it to myself otherwise it is going to be a long 8 months. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy, I just don't think I can cope if something happens to this one.
Mel - Porkchop sandwiches!! How are you doing? Have you done a test today? I am sorry to hear you got stuck in a *****ty temping position, hopefully they can find you somewhere else.
Flowerchild - Congrats on your scan today. I snuck a peak in the preggo thread to see how you were going. Too scared to go there yet, plus I will miss my posse here. I ain't leaving til they come too!
Lynn - How are things today? Not long to go til testing huh? How are you feeling about it?
Tess - How are you doing? Is it sinking in yet? Just starting for me. I want to tell people, but I am too scared. I really want to tell my mum, but I don't want to hurt her anymore if something goes wrong IYKWIM. So I might try to hide it for a while, but I keep getting busted, so maybe she knows. DS told her I went to the doctors, but I just laughed and pretended he just made it up. Lol.
Hello to everyone, I might come in later, but I need to get the monster to bed.
Sorry everyone that I didn't post in here this afternoon. I was out all day and home briefly to get DS organised for footy and off again...
Col is alive and well with a nice strong heartbeating away. My obs u/s machine is pretty ordinary and I find it a bit hard to work out but she said that Col is measuring fine - 7w4days instead of 7w5days... Anyway after feeling stressed about it I phoned a friend! It's handy to be in the industry sometimes - other times it makes things 100 times more stressful... Anyway my friend the fetal med obs told me to pull my head in and it was all good. So I am officially pulling in my head!
Spring: thankyou for taking the time while you are away to think of me and check in on *Col* and I - it really touched me... You are a very special woman...
Mel: I am terribly disappointed that we missed connecting.... :sad: I just can't believe I didn't know... Yes, earlier this week it was really foggy - it's cloud a lot of the time. Where we live (we live on the other side of town) on a hill the clouds come inside if I don't shut the windows... It's bizarre to see them settle over the sofa!!!!! Did you go into town or just to the cheese factory???? We could have passed each other on the street... *she shakes her head in disbelief*!
I am really zonked so I need to go my lovelies... I will do more personals tomorrow...
Nighty night...
just a quick one before MIL returns from the shops. She has been good actually (Bailey) but will still be good to have my own space tomorrow.
Thanks for the b'day wishes - Luckily i remembered what day it was as i never look at the calendar anymore. i woke up at 2.00am this morning thinking wow our little son would have been 5 months now - time has flown - but i wonder what he would have been doing if he was here with us.
Flowerchild - i quickly saw your post last night as i was thinking of you all day wondering how you went - and of course i was very confident that Col would be beating away. Congratulations - another milestone for you - it is great to hear that all went well ! And yes, "pull your head in" at the same time...LOL
Bailey - i thought you would have told your mum first straight away actually. I think she will be over the moon for you i really do and she will be there with you all the way !
Lynn - hope you are doing better today - chin up sweety - all will be good for you. Thinking of you.
Spring - thanks for NOT forgetting me. LOL Hope you are getting spoilt by your sis in Brissy -sounds like it.
My MIL keeps saying "oh you won't be able to hide that belly for much longer" to which i reply "this is still Tommy's belly not the new pregnancy" so people won't really know what to say and if they should say it. She says "oh no i don't think so" - i mean really, we have only seen each other 3 times this year so i don't think she knows how my body is changing (if is is).
Hello to everyone - hope you are doing well and having a nice weekend (it is glorious here in Sydney)
Hey Tommy,
I hope you are having a good day up there with all your friends and make sure you are looking after your mummy, daddy big sis and little bro/sis down here. We miss you and we are thinking of you today.
Happy 5th Month Birthday Tommy sweetheart. Your are only a few months away from being a big brother. Your Mummy and Daddy and Lil sis miss you so much, but we know that you are always with them. :hugs: to you and the family Tommysmum
Well I will just do a selfish post today and do personals when I am back in Sydney tomorrow. Today was the First Birthday party and I won't lie, it was tough, I only lost it about 3 times. It was hard to see my closest two friends with their babies when I know Harry should have been here too. I ate myself stupid so now my tummy is gurgling like crazy. I am proud that I got through it but I feel totally exhausted. I think 3 nights away from home at the moment is a bit of a stretch. Just need my space IYKWIM.
Anyway, home tomorrow and then only 13 sleeps until DH is home so I in the scheme of things it is only a spec in time.
Hey Spring, It must have been hard at the party. I know those stupid "should have's" They get me too. I had it at christmas sitting there with all the kids and my huge family, than had it when I was away and my friend had her 6 moth old. I kept thinking to myself that's what Asha would be doing etc. Well, you have done it now and it can only make you stronger right! And hubby will be home soon, and then followed shortly after by Lil Spring. Enjoy your last night in Brissy.
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I am so disappointed, how great would that have been? We were in Maleny on Monday and OMG the fog was absolutely amazing, we could barely see more than 10m in front of us and we couldnt see the street signs until we were right on them. We ended up stopping at this really nice restaurant for a coffee, it was just near the turn off to the cheese factor which took us like an hour to find LOL. My friend and I have said we want to go back at some stage, we especially want to go to Eumundi markets, so next time I will definitely keep you in mind.
I understand how easily those positive thoughts can turn negative, but please dont give up hope yet. As you know I had not one symptom except for a missed period when I was pg with Nicholas. What is it with AF being due on our boys 6 month birthdays - remember mine came on that day as well. I remember how hard it was and I so hope you dont have to go through that, I am keeping all digits cross for great results on Monday. I know it is hard, but try to remain positive - you have more than good chances. And the question about how much can one person take... I ask myself that all the time, and each month that goes by feels like the load is heavier to carry but there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel eventually
It is in a public hospital and everyone there is so slack, they all just sat around talking ALL day and I worked my little (or big LOL) butt off! I was so not happy, and they were not prepared at all for a temp. My printer wasnt working and I had to get it working myself cause noone had any idea what they were doing. They tried to help me, but hindered me more than anything. One of the ladies tried to tell me that I shouldnt started the names of medications with a capital letter - WTF??? Which school did they go to??? And the worst bit is that one of the ladies daughter is booked in for a caesar in a couple of weeks and I heard nothing but her going on and on and on and on about this damn baby all day! Her daughter had an appointment with the anaesthetist and I swear you would think she was having open heart surgery the way she was carrying on - ringing her every 5 mins to check if she was going ok. And she said that in the time she is on leave (which I am covering her for) she is going to bring the baby in to meet everyone! OMG what have I done in this life to keep being put through this crap? The only good thing is that she was so wrapped up in herself she didnt ask if I had any children - probably a good thing for her because I had decided that if she did I was going to tell her the truth, and maybe then I wouldnt have to listen to it. Anyway, the agency is going to try to get someone to replace me cause I just cant be in a place where it is like that.
I guess I can write this month off considering I am due for AF Saturday. I have no symptoms and I am starting to feel those "bowel" symptoms you get just prior to AF (I think Klee may have eluded to them earlier), life sucks! This will be 8 months that we have been TTC now - what more can we do? Why is it so hard to fall? I am becoming increasingly frustrated and angry about life and I am sick of being unhappy all the time!
whoo hoo on those awesome results. That is just wonderful news. I am so happy for you at the moment.
vibes this month.
for all of you.
Just joking, I know 2 more games but if we can stuff up that bad, I don't hold out much hope. Oh well. Slowly starting to sink in but so is the fear. I am going out to buy a journal so I can start purging in it and start to also write some positive things down. I have to stop doing it to myself otherwise it is going to be a long 8 months. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy, I just don't think I can cope if something happens to this one.
Anyway my friend the fetal med obs told me to pull my head in and it was all good. So I am officially pulling in my head!
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