Hi Girls,

Lynn - I was thinking of you today I hope you are doing ok tonight. I am so glad you had Spring with you to keep you smiling, and I hope that made your day alot easier. I am so sorry that your BT results werent good, I will keep my fingers and toes crossed that as you near CD26 it will start doing what it should. It will be good to hear what the FS has to say about everything, I really that he can work out something that will get you UTD!

Spring - Good on you for fobbing of you ILs, they seem absolutely self centred and downright not nice! I cannot believe your FIL had the audacity to tell you he was going to delete the email before she got to read it!!! What was your response when he told you this? If you still want to get it off your chest you can always print out the email and post her a copy in an unmarked envelope - as far as I am concerned the b**ch needs to hear a few home truths.

Clare - It is nice to hear from you, Im sorry to hear you have been having rough time. How did they get your results mixed up? Good luck for the scan next week, will you be letting the cat out of the bag about boy/girl? And hey I just noticed from your ticker that today is the gestational day you lost your precious Max - I just wanted to say congratulations on getting past that day, and I think you are very brave :hugs: Here's to a continuing H&H pregnancy!

Nat - Glad your friend went with you to your Nan's. Gave me goose bumps about the little boy playing beek a boo though, I always wonder about if children have some 6th sense that us boring old adults ignore... not that I am some freak or anything, just open minded.

Bailey - Dont be too shocked about me not testing... I gave in this morning and I got another BFN. I am due for AF on Sunday so am pretty sure would be getting at least a shadow by no so I am not overly confident, and also I have not one single symptoms. With Nicholas I didnt have any really but I distinctly remember having AF symptoms from literally the day I conceived (although I didnt know I had until I looked back on the timing), but now I dont have anything at all - nothing! So I guess its another BFN, 7 months down the track and we still cant get it right. BTW your son is just so cute hehe.

Deb - Still hoping for a BFP for you, hope you are going well and maybe getting a few symptoms.

Hi to everyone else.

So anyway (sorry I know this is a long post but that's never stopped me before LOL)... I told you all last Friday night that DHs best friend and his wife are 8-9 weeks pregnant and that I was trying to be happy about it but was finding it hard, and remember I said these are the people who dont want to see Nicholas' photos, they dont talk about him with us and when we talk about him with them they take the first opportunity to change the subject. Actually when DH was speaking to his mate on Friday it came up in conversation that they always worry about making me feel upsetting me and DH told him that it upsets me more when people dont talk about him than when they do so I dont know if that will make a difference... but sorry I got off the track there... so we received an invite to the wifes 30th in April (which we knew we were getting) and I dont know if I want to go. I know DH does and I said he can go without me so that we can reply and say I will go and if I dont feel up to it on the day pull out and DH can go alone. Basically my main reason for not wanting to go is that I know everyone will be gushing over her because she is pregnant and I also know noone is going to acknowledge Nicholas or what we have been through and I know I wont be able to cope. But there was a message on the answering machine tonight when we got home from the guy saying the want us to go over on Saturday night for dinner with them, his parents and his sister for his birthday. I dont really want to go because last time I saw his mum and his sister they didnt say anything about what had happened, they said hello and asked how I was but it was the normal hi how ya going kind of thing. So I keep thinking maybe I should go on Saturday and see how they are with me in a smaller group (especially after DH saying what he did on the phone) before making the decision about the 30th? On the other hand, I have been feeling pretty good the last couple of weeks and dont want to give myself a setback by putting myself in a situation where I know everyone is scared of talking to me cause "they dont want to upset the fragile one" you know. What do I do? Please girls help me make the decision. I keep thinking I dont want to alienate these people because he is DHs best mate and has been since high school, and also what am I gonna do avoid them all the way through her pregnancy? I keep thinking if I get a BFP this month it will make it all easier to deal with because I plan to tell anyone who will listen to me as soon as I find out but then after the BFN this morning I am not very confident I will be getting a BFP. WTF am I going on about... sorry I know I have just sounded like a complete nut and rambled so I am going to hit "submit reply" now and read it back afterwards (hopefully I dont regret it, LOL).

Take care all,

Mel