Hi Everyone,
Sorry I have been around but just hadn't posted. I am feeling a bit flat at the moment and not the best of company!
It's a for me this month I am afraid... I will be okay in a few days but right now I am feeling not so wonderful! I am off to see my obs tomorrow - she wants to up my dose of clomid so we will see what next month brings...
I will pop in tomorrow and do personals - just feeling a little conscious of my absence!
Deb - I am sorry to hear you got a BFN. Hopefully your OB can sort something so you can get that positive next month.
Clare - I can't believe that they mixed your scans. How horrible that must have been for you. Good luck at next weeks scan. Obviously you will just be happy to find that bubs is healthy, but are you hoping for either sex in particular? That's great you have found a good GP that you can get lot's of reassurance from.
Mel - Sorry about the BFN. BUT, it is still a little early isn't it?? Don't give up yet. I am sure I will get a BFN too. Getting the usual AF symptoms, bad skin etc. Oh well! I am not sure what you should do about the party. I would probably just go ahead and just RSVP and then see how you feel on the day. If you are like me, the way you feel can change just like that. I think that maybe that is a good idea to ease into it and do the smaller dinner first. Thats how i did it. % weeks after we lost Asha I was invited to a friends 30th and I just said to her that I would say yes for now but decide on the day. Then a couple of days before it i just got a couple of the girls to come over for a bit just to get it out of the way I guess. And that worked for me, I got all the uncomfortable bits out of the way first and than I was better able to relax a couple of days later at the party - well until an aquaintance came up and screeched "oh you've had it, what did you have?" in front of everyone. There was a deathly silence, poor bugger, she started bawling when someone pulled her aside and told her and she left early. I don;t think she's been the same since, lol. Who knows, maybe you will feel like having a drink and a night out. And, if it gets to the day and you don;t feel like going, well stuff what any one else thinks, don't go. You are entitled. Maybe when these friends get further into their pregnancy they will be able to look back and appreciate what you have been and are going through. Whatever you decide, just make sure you do what you want to do.
Spring - Thanks for you messages last night, I read them but I didn't reply cos I was a bit blubbery, lol. I decided to grab my little would-be baby napper and go and snuggle in bed with him. Has MIL called again? Glad to hear you are not letting it get to you.
Lynn - How are you doing today? I also found that somethings are getting harder. You are so right about the many 'firsts' I think not being pregnant adds to that feeling. It is just so frustrating isn't it? Are you getting some blood test's tommorrow? Hopefully there will be some egg activity for you.
Hi to Nat, Klee and Chelle too!!
3 more days of work till I am off on my holiday. I was just researching our hotel on the internet to make sure they have intenet there and hooray!! they do, so I will be able to stay in the loop to hear about everyones BFP's.
Flowerchild: You have every right to feel flat about your BFN. I am sorry babe, I am glad that your FS is trying other things to get that magical BFP. Take all the time you need but don't stay away too long, we will miss you too much:hugs:
Mel: Hmm, that's a tough one. I agree with the girls, just see how you are feeling on the day. I totally know what you mean about people gushing over pregnant women / babies. Remember the wedding I went to in December, everyone was going crazy over my friends baby and pretended that nothing was different with me. It upset me so much and I remember being so angry. I don't know how far away their house is, but you could always say you will go for a drink, and if when you get there you are having a good time, you can stay. I agree with Clare, I would judge how it goes at the dinner before making a decision about the 30th.
Lynn: Did you get to speak to the FS today? Good luck with your bloods tomorrow. I can't remember if you are having a scan also, but I really hope that you finally get some good news. Boy do you deserve it.
Clare: So great to hear from you. I hope that your 'reassure the nutcase' scan goes well next week and that you find out if it is a spoldge or a splodgette (lol). I had one of those crazy women scans on Tuesday. I told my Ob that we needed to see eachother more often and he laughed and said, I am glad you missed me so much. I just missed that ultrasound machine. I even asked how much they cost but I don't have a spair 30K to blow.
Klee: You are doing exactly what you need to do honey, just survive day by day. I remember in those early days I would forget that I would need to go to the toilet, then get a pain in my tummy and realised I hadn't done a wee all day. Your body sort of stops functioning but trust me, the cloud will slowly lift and you will have the courage to look for the light at the end of the tunnel again.
Bailey: Whoo Hoo only 3 days left of work. That is sensational. I am very envious. (lol) about there being internet in the hotel.. I think it is great that you can keep up with the BB gang but we will understand if you are otherwise occupied
Well, MIl hasn't tried to call yet thank god which is lucky for her because I am in a fould mood. I am off to Canberra for a conference tomorrow and should get maybe an hour with DH. I am just feeling really emotional today, just at the end of my teather. I am really worried that my work colleagues at the conference will speculate if I am pregnant. I got some new clothes that I think should hide any buldges. I am also peeved about my MIL and angry at our stupid tenants who are still causing grief. I know in the scheme of life it is all pretty un-important, but a girl deserves a whinge every now and then.
Anyway sweeties, off to call DH and then I'll pop in before bed.
Thanks for that Bailey, but it isn't until tomorrow - confusing huh. The new ticker I have is from an American site and it ticks over about half a day early.
I should change it I know but it is so funky that I thought I would keep it a little longer. So 15 weeks in just over 3 hours.
You are a sweetie. This bub is going to have so many awesome Aunties.
for me this month I am afraid... I will be okay in a few days but right now I am feeling not so wonderful! I am off to see my obs tomorrow - she wants to up my dose of clomid so we will see what next month brings...
My thoughts are with you and I hope that the increase in Clomid is just what you need. I understand that you need some time.
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