Spring - thank you for spending yesterday with me. After the week I have had and Cooper's 4 month birthday, I knew yesterday would be tough but you helped me through it, so thank you
I think I ate too much as well!!! I didn't feel well last night and couldn't even think about having dinner.
Mel - you and I are in the same place at the moment, aren't we? (in terms of pg around us!!!) It is a tough one - it is DH best mate, but you also have to protect yourself. You can't put yourself in situations that are going to put you back into the big black hole. Look where I have ended up You just need to do what is right for you, what is in your heart. Unfortunately people don't understand our choices and decisions because they don't know what it is like to live in our shoes every single day. If they could live in our shoes on one of our good days, they would see how difficult and painful our lives are right now.
Clare - I hope the scan goes well, I'm sure it will. I can't wait to hear whether it is splodge or splodgette. Congrats on getting past Max's gest day. Wishing you the most H&H pregnancy - big :hugs:
Bailey - DS is so cute. The innocence of children is beautiful but also sometimes painful. I think you handled it well. You will have a bubba very soon and DS will have his own 'sophie'. With DH away, if you need to talk, you know where I am.
I think as each month passes it gets harder. Some people say that over time it gets easier but I find it is harder. 4 months is harder than 3 because you realise all the things that you have missed out on and all the things that they are starting to do at 4 months. Somebody once said to me that the first year is the hardest because it is the first of everything. But for the loss of a child the firsts are not all in the first year - what about first step, first word, first day of school.........I don't think it will ever get easy, I just hope that it is managable.
Deb - hope you are ok. Haven't seen you around for a while.
You just need to do what is right for you, what is in your heart. Unfortunately people don't understand our choices and decisions because they don't know what it is like to live in our shoes every single day. If they could live in our shoes on one of our good days, they would see how difficult and painful our lives are right now.
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