Spring - I'm so glad to hear that you are ok. I was starting to get worried because you hadn't posted much and normally you are here all the time! I guess you have DH at home now so I can understand you not spending as much time here. I was going to call but thought I would give you space so I sent the text. Thanks for letting me know that you are ok. I worry about you girls! I will call you tonight to talk about Sunday.

Mel - this is the type of month that might be your month, you weren't stressed, you weren't really trying. Remember how I fell with Cooper? Well this could be your month. Please don't give up yet. And if that wicked witch shows up at your place, let me know because I will come down there and kick her ar@e. I hope you are feeling better today. How good is a sleep in for half of the day! I have to admit I have had a few of those.

Jo - I really do hope you can get some answers soon. I hope it isn't too painful for your DH. Hey and remember you can talk as much as you want here.

Georgie - so good to see you back here I'm sorry you have been having a hard time lately. The only thing that I can suggest is talking to us about how you are feeling. I made the mistake once of bottling things up and not talking here for a few days and it was horrible. I felt so alone. I eventually spoke about how I was feeling and the girls here were wonderful in making me feel normal and just being here for me. Unfortuntely this roller-coaster that we are on has many ups and downs and the downs are very difficult to deal with at times. I hope that Mel's ob can help you on the TTC journey. It was really hard for me when I felt that people were moving on. I think that is why coming in here for me is so important because no-one here has forgotten my Cooper. The only way I have dealt with it is by surrounding myself with people that support me and continue to talk about Cooper. I have some very close friends that don't talk about Cooper and don't really contact me anymore. I guess I am just 'too hard'. Your son is so alive in your heart and dreams, so just talk about him. Maybe people don't talk about him because they think they might upset you. I talk about Cooper to everyone and let them know that I am happy to talk about him. Stay strong

Auntie M - thanks for letting me know about your trip to the hospital. I think there will be tears when I get there on Monday. Wow a trip to Nebraska! How exciting! Like Bailey said we just go 'up the coast'. Enjoy your weekend. I love the way you spoke about your box. It made me realise that I too am happy in my box. If anyone wants to join me then fine, but otherwise this is who I am now.

Bailey - I know I am a busy busy bee. This morning I got up early and went and had breakfast with some people that I used to work with. It was good to catch up. Tomorrow I have lunch for a friends birthday and then lunch with you chicks on Sunday. Then lunch with Phill Kearns. My god I will be the size of a truck by Tuesday!!!! When I go for my scan on Monday they might not be able to see the baby through all the food I can tell you now, I won't be looking at the screen until they tell me everything is fine.

Well just a bit of news on me............I have decided that I am going back to work. I will just be working part time. I just felt like I needed something. On the TTC journey it was hard planning each day because I didn't know when I would be having a bt or u/s but now I know when I am seeing my ob and when I am having scans. I can only clean the same cupboard so many times!!!! Work has been really good and have said that if there is a day where I just don't feel I can go in then I don't have to and if I work for a few days and decide that the time isn't right, I can leave and start again later. It is just what I need. I will also be a floater so I won't be letting anyone down if I don't go in and it won't be stressful so I can still have 'Lynn crazy time'! So I won't be stalking BB as much! Phew you all sigh!!!