Hindonly: Welcome to the thread although I am sorry that you have to join us. Of course you are welcome, we will all welcome you with open arms and will take very good care of you. Don't worry about being a downer, you can feel free to be however you want in here and we will support you just the same. It can be really hard when friends and family fall pregnant. I am pregnant and I still find it hard to see pregnant women, go figure. There are a few of us in here at the moment trying to deal with pregnancies of those in our life and the inconsiderate things that can happen (like feeling fogotten) so welcome honey, I hope you stay here is short and sweet. :hugs: to you sweetie.

Kristee-lee- I posted to you in another thread but can I just say again I am so very sorry that you lost your angel on your wedding day, you must be an amazing and strong woman to have survived that pain. It is more than ok that you join us, not everyone in here has had a s/b and a loss at any stage in pregnancy is a loss. By looking at your signature you have had a very difficult and painful time in the past, there are some very helpful women in here that will be able to give you suggestions or advice about test and medications so that you never have to feel the pain of a loss ever again. As I said, I am so very sorry, keep talking babe, it is the best thing I have done finding these women. I was paying a small fortune for a psych, but nothing in the world is better than the love and support of these ladies. Big warm :hugs:

Lynn: I can't imagine the mixed emotions that you must be feeling but I am glad that if AF was going to show up eventually, she didn't make you wait any more. Does that mean that you start the injections today? How did you find the SIDS and Kids meeting? I understand if you don't feel like discussing it, but if you want to talk we are all here.

Deb: How was your friend with the twins? Boy must her life be crazy at the moment. I hope you had a nice afternoon and that the bloated feeling is clearing up.. Day four into the TWW already, bring on day 14 I say.

Well I have my appointment at the booking in clinic. I must admit, I was a bit taken aback at the public health system. I am a private paitent but going to the public hospital and when I was walking to the clinic there were sick people just waiting everywhere, young and old, it was quite upsetting because my appointment took 1.5 hours and when I left there were a few very elderly people who were still sitting in their wheel chairs waiting. Poor old sods, I felt very sorry for them.

Anyway, the appointment was ok, the midwife was good and was respectful about Harry and answered all my questions. Although as soon as I walked in the lady at reception gave me a bounty bag and I burst into tears. I don't want a darn bag, I want Harry. That is all I could think. Of course it was really upsetting going through the whole story of my pregnancy with Harry and the birth but I had prepared myself and the midwife let me take my time. Lil' Spring must have known I was upset because I got some of the best movements I have had so far while I was talking about Harry. I always find it exhausting talking about everything, the midwife suggested I talk to some of their psych staff at the hospital who are women who deal with stillbirth so I think that I will take her up on the offer. It will be good to know that they will be the people talking to me after the birth of Lil' Spring. Also, they have said that I can do a private tour of the maternity unit so that I don't have to be in a group of 15 or so pregnant women so that makes me feel better. They are also fine with me having a Doula but said that the hospital view them as a birth support partner and that they don't have any authority in the hospital. I presume that is the case in every hospital, Deb do you know if that is normal?

Anyway, sorry for going on a bit today, I really appreciate the fact that I can be totally honest in here. Just feeling sorry for myself and for those poor old people who are probably still waiting.

Big love to everyone else. This group is getting too big girls, I think I can feel some graduations coming on.

Spring