Kristee - I am so sorry for the loss of your angels, I really wish you didnt have to be here. But you are very welcome, you have been through a lot and I am so sorry you went through losing your angel on what is meant to be a happy day. Unfortunately it is now the thing that will last in your memories of your wedding day. Although hopefully you graduate from this thread with future memories that will warm your heart and arms
Hindonly - I am also sorry to you for the loss of your angels. I hope that we can give you support and see you through your next pregnancy. I am sorry that you have been TTC for 6 months now, I understand how hard that is. I fell pregnant with Nicholas accidentally but now have been TTC for 7 (going on 8) months and it is so frustrating, and everytime AF arrives your heart breaks that little bit more. Hopefully we will all be graduating from this thread asap.
Spring - It sounds like it has been an emotional day, so proud of you for doing it (on your own of all things) and being able to talk about Harry. How funny is it that lil Spring was kicking around when you were talking about him... HE/she definitely knows who their brother is! How awful about the old folks, a bit disrepectful really but what can you do - public hospital staff are extremely overworked and underpaid... how evil am I though, couldnt help but chuckle at your comment that they are probably still waiting LOL.
Lynn - YAY that AF has arrived I know it is hard and you are right it does bring up all sorts of emotions regardless of whether you think you have a chance or not... AF is a reminder of what we have lost I think. But it IS a good thing, now you can plan for next month and as you said, this will be your last month TTC! The ex would have only got our response today so we havent heard anything yet - he has a phone conf booked for 24th april so not expecting to until then. Hey, how did your meeting go? When are you going away again?
Deb - Hey all those symptoms sound promising! Do you think they could be...? I think you are very brave being able to see the babies, I cant look at babies - except my niece. Actually DH had a blood test tonight and I sat in the waiting room waiting for him and he took forever (cause he is a big girls blouse and had to lay down afterwards - MEN!) and a lady came in with an approx. 6 month old boy - he was so beautiful and kept looking at me and smiling and I just wanted to burst into tears. I managed to squeeze out a smile to him (I can hardly be mean to a baby can I?) but deep down I just wanted them to go away.
Tommysmum - I feel the same way you do about our boys - it is almost my mission in life to MAKE people understand that he was just like any other baby but he just wasnt beathing at birth. I mean, other women (many of members of BB as I have noticed) have babies earlier than 36 weeks and their babies survive and are at home with them a few days later. Anyway, I think you should be proud of your boy and show him off any way you can... except to the sausage man, he would probably just stare at you and say "que?" LOL.
Klee - :hugs: to you and Phoebe. What a beautiful thing to happen with the lily - she opened it up just for her beautiful mummy. I hope you are feeling a little better today (well as much as you can iykwim). Work is tough isnt it, I went back very early - after 4 weeks and it is really hard. I think it is very insensitive for the lady at your work to tell you about the baby who was born if she knew about Phoebe, insensitive to the point of being downright heartless! I hope you dont have to go through that insensitivity again.
Nat - Good to hear from you... school hols would have been manic for you! Hopefully you can return to the land of BB again.
Alex - Hope AF pulls her finger out... is it really that abnormal for bleeding 16dp D&C? I would have thought you would bleed for a little while cause your body has to flush and stuff - but then I might be wrong (sorry) as I havent had D&C before. Anyway, fingers crossed it all sorts out soon.
Wow Spring - you are right (as usual) - it is getting full in here and in a way it makes me a little sad cause it means there are more people going through this s***. But there is still noone from Melbourne I so wish I could come to your catch ups, I think that I relate to you girls more than I can my own friends now, afterall (unfortunately) we have alot in common. And other people just dont understand and expect us to go about day to day life as we did before. I did hear back from Sids and Kids this afternoon and they are going to get a social worker to call me. I am really looking forward to going to a meeting, to meet and interact face to face with other women who have experienced a stillbirth, meet women who actually know this is my life now and not something I will get over. I know it will be hard but I really think I can benefit from it, although I am really nervous. I dont want to go on my own and I think DH doesnt really want to go (cause he knows it will be pretty much just women so he will feel a bit out of place). I would take my mum but I dont think you are allowed to, so I will just have to get up the courage to go it alone.
In answer to the questions about TWW, nothing to report yet - no symptoms whatsoever and unfortunately I have a case of thrush (she says embarrassed) because of the antibiotics I was put on for my UTI - dont know if that can affect conception but if so I wont be getting lucky this month. Anyway, I am going to try and hold off testing until after AF is due, if she doesnt come that is (hey anyone laughing at that as much as I am?) - well I did say TRY.
Hi to Chelle, Sarah, Jo, Bailey (who has left us for the sun of Bali)... OMG I feel like I am forgetting someone - sincere apologies if I am, I dont know if I can keep up with everyone now LOL... and imagine how long my posts are going to have to be now! LMAO (much like this one really). Hey we havent heard from Mish or Tess for a while, hope they're doing ok.
Anyway, guess I better go... If I keep going, Deb might have to start ANOTHER new thread hehe.
Love to all,
Mel
Last edited by Mel1977; April 18th, 2007 at 10:13 PM.
I know it is hard and you are right it does bring up all sorts of emotions regardless of whether you think you have a chance or not... AF is a reminder of what we have lost I think. But it IS a good thing, now you can plan for next month and as you said, this will be your last month TTC! The ex would have only got our response today so we havent heard anything yet - he has a phone conf booked for 24th april so not expecting to until then. Hey, how did your meeting go? When are you going away again?
I so wish I could come to your catch ups, I think that I relate to you girls more than I can my own friends now, afterall (unfortunately) we have alot in common. And other people just dont understand and expect us to go about day to day life as we did before. I did hear back from Sids and Kids this afternoon and they are going to get a social worker to call me. I am really looking forward to going to a meeting, to meet and interact face to face with other women who have experienced a stillbirth, meet women who actually know this is my life now and not something I will get over. I know it will be hard but I really think I can benefit from it, although I am really nervous. I dont want to go on my own and I think DH doesnt really want to go (cause he knows it will be pretty much just women so he will feel a bit out of place). I would take my mum but I dont think you are allowed to, so I will just have to get up the courage to go it alone.
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