I agree with Mel Lynn about the feelings of grief. I am sure the stress of TTC adds to the grief which adds to the stress of TTC and so it goes. I know this is the case for me and it sounds like it may be for you too. We just have to keep the belief that we will get there little steps at a time. For you let's get that bleed happening and then those needles (if that's what you decide) and before we know it you will be cd8 and having an u/sound showing some follie activity beginning! YOU will get that Earth Baby it is just out there waiting...