i just wanted to pop in and encourage lara yes go and see the counsellor, i have had counselling alot (mostly over the phone) we started when jessie was first diagnosed with her brain tumour and have continued ever since, it is good to just poor out your emotions. it really frustrates me how some people perceive that i must be a really strong person as when jessie was sick and subsequently when she passed away i sort of ran on automatic pilot and to tell you the truth i didn't and still haven't really grieved. people also think i am ok as i have had lani and we must be moving on with our lives. but i have alot of down days, it is awful and thats when it helps to just pick up the phone and have a chat to my counsellor it makes me continue on a bit more - a bit like waiting to go back to your ob to hear bubs heartbeat when you are pregnant it keeps you going sane until next time around.
sorry i don't have much more to add as alana is in a different situation than what our daughter was and our outcome was poor at the time of diagnosis but i just really wanted to encourage you to do some counselling.
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