Lila slept like normal (11-9) the past two nights! No idea why. So much happier, both of us. I hope hope it keeps going.
Had vax yesterday at the new doctor's. This one is an Arab woman, she wears hijab and everything and judging from the packed waiting room most of her patients are Arab immigrant families. Fantastic. I feel very much at home in that sort of setting and the Dr. was great. She said she sees lots of cloth nappies and was telling me the health and bonding benefits of baby wearing. It was all stuff I had read already, gave me a good feeling about her to have her telling me though. Lila was alright with the shots, cried when the stuck her but settled soon enough. Was a little more grizzly than usual last night so I gave her a little panadol for the pain and an extra feed and she slept soundly. A little extra clingy today but that's fine. Anyway I'm kind of hoping to maybe make a young Arab mummy friend and we can trade arabic-english lessons. i used to study it at uni and I don't want to lose it.
Janine- do you use your tickle turdle wraps? I love love love mine and bought some more wool yesterday to make more since mine are getting too small/ratty. Found such lovely nice wool- Clickheaton's. Smooth and soft and machine washable.. I can't believe you're 49 kilos, you poor poor chicken. Good grief, I thought I was looking pretty good at 68 kilos... I hope you find out better what you can eat so you can put some weight back on. Very shocking. And thanks for the info on slinging outwards, I didn't know that and the part about them not being able to turn away from too much stimulus didn't occur to me. I'll keep that in mind. I do face her out sometimes but its with frogged up legs and not usually for very long. When she starts voicing unhappiness I take her out.
Nettie-I think having a good baby is part luck, but also being calm and confident yourself- sounds like you're both soo good with baxter, of course he'll be sweet and good and trustful. That trust one seems to be the most important, I feel like Lila trusts me more now than she did at first. Like trusts me to be there when she needs me and not leave her alone. There's not really any scientific research for it, but I wonder if perhaps Dr. Spock and his back-a$$-wards methods that so many practiced has something to do with the epidemic of depression and distrust of one's elders that is so rife these days. I mean, its all a rich tapestry of course, but maybe people learn from an early age that they can only rely on themselves...? Oooh sorry for the rant.. hehe.
Jen- My Lila has outgrown her sling mostly so I ordered a Mei Tai. I like the way it looks and what I've heard but I don't have mine yet so I can't personally attest to how much I like it. I'm pretty sure Lila will like it too, she likes best being upright and pressed against one of us. I'm hoping hoping that maybe when I get it she'll practically live in it and I can work again. I mean, if women work in rice paddies with their baby on their back, surely I can sit at a cafe writing with a baby on mine??
Meg- You can do it. You love your baby, you're such a good mother. It's just really hard sometimes, especially when the routine is disrupted and you don't know what to expect next. I was feeling just like you and then magically Lila started back on her regular sleeping pattern. You can do it. One minute follows another, one hour at a time. You can. It won't always be like that I promise.
Beatrix-Its hard staying out of the chocolate (and the coffee, and everything good... sigh) I hope it gets easier for you soon, maybe xdh could help a bit??
Hellos all around to anyone I've missed, must run since little Miss wants her afternoon boobie...
She seems to be okay if i wrap her, then feed her, then put her in the cot. It works, sometimes. Its really hit and miss with her. One moment it will work, the next it wont. 
he left for work and we werent on very good terms, and i said sorry, and i think he is still mad at me coz i havent heard from him all night, which is unusual for him. 
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