Janine- sounds like you're really doing it rough, kudos for sticking to what you believe is the right thing to do for your Ci. When I was having so much trouble bfing Lila I had heaps of people telling me it was ok to switch to formula, that she'd be alright etc etc. Of course she'd be "alright" and I'm not bagging out anyone who FF, but what I needed to hear was encouragement to keep going with what I felt was the right thing to do. And I did stick to it and it did get better. So stick with the bfing/cosleeping and don't change it if you feel that would be wrong. My auntie (who is like my mother) had three sons and they slept in their own beds but she still got up with them every hour of the early morning to feed until they were over a year old. So sticking him in his own bed away from you might not change things anyway. You'd just have to get out of your nice warm bed to go to him. Good for you. Ci is a lucky little man.

Beatrix- Its so good you got a little break and a nice dinner. I've been all about the dimsims since I got pregnant, never touched them before.

BW- I've been eating heaps of sweets since Lila was born, too. I try not to buy them when I'm out (can't afford them anyway) so I usually end up making a zucchini cake or some cookies or whatever. Its terrible.

Things are pretty good here, we went to an Indian wedding yesterday and she slept through all the crashing music and loud chanting. She slept through the hour and a half long ceremony and was wide-eyed and cute during the reception.

I'm kind of bummed though, I have heaps of student loans back in the states. You have to start repaying within a year of leaving uni (horrible, the system here is so much better) and my year is up. We're just getting by as it is, and besides DH shouldn't have to pay off my education. Bloody worthless degree in Political Science. So I'm starting to look around for part time work I can do. Probably receptionist/boring office work. If I'm lucky maybe some writing job. Sucks. I can't stand the thought of leaving Lila even for a few days a week.. Our family doesn't live close enough for me to drop her off at Granny's or my SIL's (who would LOVE to do it) so it looks like we'll have to put her in day care after DH's uni holidays are over. I hate it I hate it I hate it. At least I have a comparatively small amount to pay back, I had heaps of scholarships and grants. I know people with upwards of $100,000 in debts. Wretched.