jayne - that not stupid that normal, i am so so lucky benji works only 5 days a week it would be nice if it wasnt 6 til 6 basically but at least i see him every night IF I didnt see him every night and we were talking about daughters first birthday and roster got changed i'd be fuming too

tashi - we were going to give jems cord blood to the blood bank not store it for her but we couldnt do anything coz of the time of night i had her AND that they needed her cord blood for testing to find her blood type right away coz i am 0- and scary things would have happened if her blood got into mine etc next bub we will try again to donate it but again i dont think they will let us coz of needing to test bubs blood right away (i said just ***** her foot but they all thought that was cruel?)

michelle - if brianna said she wanted hair removal would you let her do it?? i'm still thinking about the girl i babysat the other day - and do you think i should tell her mother that she was so sad about the time or lack of she was having with her mum she said her mum always on the computer (warning bells to myself not to turn out like that)?

i checked out 2 daycare places today - one over the top professional with mon, tues and thurs avail and one more laid back that only take babies from 15months so May for Jemima...... both different, both good and bad in different ways the 15month one i could walk to the professional one is less than 5 drive.
there are another 2 i will look at before deciding if i even want to think about going to work or part of me thinks to just bite the bullet as i wont like anywhere and just do it
gotta get a job first
gotta decide what i want, basically i have experience in offices and teeny bit of warehouse so can do either but dont feel like getting all prissed up everyday to go work in an office or the crap that goes with working in an office but do i feel like working in a warehouse..... or i think i do want to work in a warehouse but am i worried about what other people would say about that choice

oh well will keep thinking

jemima been awesome today so i would not have wanted to miss it being at work - she was awesome at kids club and before and she napped when got home til just before i went to a friendds for lunch where she had a blast and then was good when i got home and then five mins later decided to do a daycare run.... now though asleep after our walk she is going to be interesting coz we have to go to dinner for her PopI's birthday and she hasnt had first dinner let alone second dinner, so i guess i should wake her and get some food into her and then bath her..... or wait and see what happens..... when she wakes we will get into her what we can give her a change of clothes and bring some extra food with us.... hmmmmm

i am YES needing some time out BUT i dont know what i would do with it
mum maybe babysitting tomorrow hopefully lunch time and i am going to take benji to lunch - i have been really really awful to him, laying into him for nothing at all but it is not jemima that is the problem she is awesome i think it is just catching up with me now that i am trying to get stuff done how hard it is to get anything done
then when u do it the baby comes and messes it all up
ho hum